don't leave, please. // SKZ x CHAN

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Dear Chan,

It has been a while since I felt this broken inside, but not a day goes by without you in my thoughts. Losing you was the greatest tragedy that has ever happened to me. You were someone that I cherished dearly, someone who had a heart full of kindness and generosity.

I wish I could turn back time and change what happened, but I know that's a reality that I must face. Memories of our laughter, our tears, and even our arguments keep echoing in my mind. I'm not sure if I could ever forget about them. The pain and the void you've left in my life are unbearable.

I miss you dearly, Chan. You were someone who brought joy and happiness to those that were around you. Your vibrant personality, your smile, and your laughter are things that I hold onto. You may not be here physically, but your spirit lives on in everyone's lives that you've touched.

Your departure has changed me. The things I thought were important no longer matter, and the things that genuinely mattered, I now appreciate so much more. I realized that life is too short, and we need to cherish the people we love while they are still with us.

As I'm writing this letter, I want you to know that I'm not doing well. I'm not sure how much longer I will last in this world alone without you. A part of me wishes I could join you in death right now. Perhaps we could be together once again, and I won't have to endure this pain anymore.

Chan, please forgive me for even thinking of such things. I know that it's selfish of me to ask for your company in the next life when there are so many things left for me to do and people who care about me in this world. But, the thought of seeing you again gives me comfort and solace, even if it's just in my dreams. So I will join you. 

Life hasn't been the same since you left us, and it will never be the same again. But, I am grateful for the time we had together, and I will always cherish the memories we shared.

Rest in peace, my dear friend. I will see you again, sooner than you think, and we will embrace each other once more.

With love,

Felix