I sat down smoking my last cigarette, ray sat besides me. I open my mouth and the smoke left. I sighed and rolled my head back. I could hear ray chuckle besides me "what's wrong?" He asked. I turned to face him "Hmm, everything." "Everything?". I smiled at him "Everything sucks, well, except you. You're not TOO bad" I teased and smiled. He laughed "You're not bad yourself".
"You wanna talk about it?" He asked. I put a finger on my chin and frowned "I guess I'm just stressed with school, my friends, and my parents. I'm tired of all the negativity they give off. That kinda shit keeps me up at night, ya know? I can't put my finger on it because its just everything. I don't know how to explain the feelings I feel. I guess it kinda feels like you're staring out of eyes that aren't yours. Staring at a world you don't belong in" I paused and frowned "It's fucked".
He nodded "I know how you feel, but after the dark there's always light" he looked at me. I stared at him curiously "Have you found that light? Have you made it out the dark?". He placed his hand on my thigh gently and smiled warmly at me "I used to think I wasn't. I always felt like I was in the dark and I would never find a way out. But all that changed, I found my light" he said with a calming voice. I blushed and nodded "What was that light?". "It was you, you are the light that guided me through the dark. When my little brother died I felt like I fell so deep into the dark I'd never make it out. But then I found you. And I felt like I was out of the dark". Am I hearing him right?
"Y/n, you're my light, my life"
I'm his light? I'm his light. "I'm your light?". He nodded and smiled moving his hand from my thigh to my chin as he leaned closer "my light.." he whispered before he kissed me tenderly on my lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed back slowly. It felt amazing. I could feel that light starting to glow.
June 10, 2023
