Disturbing context :
Chay pov
Today is the day of my surgery I am so nervous I want to meet Macau I want to talk him and express my feeling towards I called him several times but he wasn't picked up my calls that make me sad also what I can do about it.
"Doctor can you just wait for a minute"
I said I was hooping Macau was there, brother also here with me but still I am hoping specially for Macau why he suddenly stop talking me I need the answer
"Okay we will start after 20 minutes"
I nodded 20 minutes passed in the blink of an eye Macau not there for me as i accept they started my surgery I felt unconsciou
Macau pov
There hve lot s of misscalls from chay i resist my self to pick up how how i can do this can i?
There is call from unknown number i remember the voice but i guess I'm wrong
"If you are free, visit me on fox garden it's urgent and also about chay"
First i ingnor but when he mentions chay i feel some weird
When i riched at garden i saw kim is waiting for someone he looking at me and wave
"Hey, I'm waiting for you"
When is say i know the voice is so similar to a voice of my phone my blood boil as i punch Stright his jaw he felt on ground
"Wooh what's for that"
The moment I realise that I pursed my anger of someone else or just right person I hate him so badly
"Now tell me why you fucking tricked me?"
"I just wanna talk to you, ok you are here that mean you don't know chay have last surgery"
The moment I realise I messed up everything I don't know what to say because I hurt him(chay) so much and I feel so bad about it he call me and send me sms all this time just to see me before his Sergey? I feel devicited
"tell me why you calling me here"
He handed me his trophy,and that moment i noticed gulty eyes
"Plz can you deliver this to chay? I am just asking for favour "
I'm so confused looking at him Why he change so much i never recognise this kim if he change his face he is the totally different person an artist work to achieve trophy but he just
"Chay deserve this I kept my promise"
"why don't you give it yourself" I ask were they are together why he asking me for help
"I wish i could but I'm leaving Thailand for new start" kim
"I don't know what you're talking about" Macau
"Just wants free my heart from guilt when i was just 13 year old I found that I have schizophrenia I heard weird noises and saw weird figure
Once a day I saw of monster standing near by stair and slowly walk towards me I push that monster so hard monster slip and for felt on the ground the moment I realise it was my mom but she passed away .. after that moment my dad refuse to talk with me i feel guilty but also my brother always with me as like my shadow whenever I need them they always here for me but things change when they when I was with my brother thankhun bunch of people attack on us my older brother thankhun injured so badly he was in deep coma
26 bullet on car 1 cut my arm and 5 dead bodies I'm blaming my self always because they want to make me happy i lost everyone day by day wich i don't have control
Therapy was so so rough I couldn't handle it and I try many times suicide but I always fail it's only me would jerk here is the only me people are dieing"
When kim open up his feelings i feel i was wrong to judge him but how i can ingnor the way he treated chay and others
" You are too mean with other why? And why you with SAHY?" I ASK
" I have my personal reason I was new at the school and SAHY is my only friend I was told him everything about my past life and he started mean towards me I don't want that people judge me that I was kill my mom so he kept saying because I kept doing that i have no option
But when chay and i was in relationship my heart truly fall for him .. but because of my stupid decision now he hates me lot
.I have no option for now so I just decided leaving this city or this country soon this is the last gift I just want to deliver to chay"
I don't know what to say but the explanation have some kind of true when he Explain me his situation and I feel sad for kim I was deep into thought when he say
"You are nice friend or more than that to chay right? I don't know about you but whenever I mention your name in front of chay his eyes glitter it shines brighter than sun" kim
"You think he love me?" Macau
"You are dumbo! Of course he do"
Kim don't know what's going in my mind it's feel like my heart just burst into happiness he don't know I am not on the earth and thevitating high and high I am happy to know
Irish directly into hospital there is saw Porsche is out side of operation room and doctors talking with him
"How .. how is he now?" I ask
"Surgery where successful ,but he is in coma temporary"
My heart just broke in 2000 of pieces
.......
As doctor allow us to meet with chay I entered at room I saw a body peacefully lying his body look so weak his hair was gone only care about him in waiting to wake up set the trophy aside the table gentle holding his hand
My tears falling down on my cheeks I feel so mad on myself how I can be So jerk to hurt someone I love most
I just want to let him know that how much I freaking love him
I am ready to say thousands of time " i love you" in public
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vinegar or soya (kinnporsche X Macauchaykim)
Fanfictionstory start from Porschay when he stuck with his toxic relationship with kim .. Macau is new at school when he fall form porschay and his cuteness ... chay hate to choose one of tham . . don't know why but i have string feeling regarding kim and do...
