Love Song - Sebastian Stan x Female!Reader

Chapter 20 - Back At One

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl, It's plain to see
That you're the only one for me, and

Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
(Yeah, yeah)

It's so incredible
The way things work themselves out
And all emotional
Once you know what it's all about (hey)

And undesirable
For us to be apart
Never would've made it very far
'Cause you know, you've got the keys to my heart, 'cause

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl, It's plain to see
That you're the only one for me, and

Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one

Back At One - Brian McKnight

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Lake Poway, Poway, California - June 5th - 5.30 am

It was a cold morning in Poway, California. The sun was not up yet. The atmosphere was quiet, not even the sound of birds could be heard in the air. The sky was still mostly dark, but up above the rolling hills of Poway, which could be seen like small mountains in the distance, the sky had slowly turned orange with hues of magenta. It was magnificent, magical.

A woman sat down on the grass at Lake Poway Park, leaning her back on a tree. Her face looked upon the beautiful Lake Poway where the sun was getting ready to greet her from behind the hills across the lake. She couldn't help but be in awe at how beautiful it was.

Slowly but surely, the sun crept up even higher and the sky slowly turned light blue. White clouds could be seen floating high above the sun, and she finally heard the sound of birds chirping and ducks quacking in the distance.

She took a deep breath and filled her lungs with the fresh and crisp morning air. She felt at peace and content. All the stress, heart aches and anxiety flowed out of her into nothingness. For a moment she could feel herself being whole again. And she was happy.

Her eyes studied the blue sky again. Blue.. like the eyes of a certain someone.

And just like that, with that thought coming into her mind like a thief in the night, the gaping hole in her chest reappeared. An unbearable ache filled her heart and tightened her chest. Her soul felt incomplete, like it has always felt since the day she turned her back on him.

It has been 5 days since she left him, and the thought of him still did this to her. She wondered if she would ever be free from it. Or whether it would be her constant companion until she takes her last breath.

She wondered what he was doing. Judging from the time in Atlanta, he was probably getting ready for the shooting of Thunderbolts. Maybe he was even already in the middle of shooting.

Her mind wandered back to the past 5 days. Days of confusion, anger, anxiety and pure sadness. She was greatly conflicted about her decision. Deep down she still loved him and wanted everything to work out between them. But on the other hand she wasn't sure she could handle the stress of being in a relationship with someone of his caliber.

She also couldn't help but feel insanely hurt by the fact that he didn't tell her about Stephanie kissing him and how he had hugged Stephanie back in Cannes. She knew he meant well and just wanted to comfort Stephanie. But still, he could've just said no. Why was he prioritizing making Stephanie feel better rather than keeping his promise of being loyal to her? She knew he didn't technically cheat on her. But still, she couldn't help but feel hurt by his actions.