Till he's mine.

1. The beginning

Have you ever liked someone so much it mentally made you feel like mush every time you saw them or when you heard their voice. If you have you understand that feeling, and if you haven't, well you're missing out. There is one person in my life who makes me feel this way. His name is Leon. Leon Cage. He is a dream in reality. Everything I've ever wanted. Blonde hair, big brown eyes, tall lean build, and his lips look so soft and kissable. What I adore about him though, is how he is truly his own very awkward, but lovable person. The only problem is I'm a guy. So is Leon, and I'm not quite so sure he's gay or bi like I am. I hope he is though, because I want him to be gay, for me.

I'm Kade Braxton.

I'm not your typical guy. I don't play video games or play sports. I don't go to parties and get drunk. I don't smoke or do drugs. I don't do a lot of normal things that regular teenage guys. I am just different. I'm okay with that though. Leon is different like me also. We are both awkward and shy and keep to ourselves. The only people who see us as our true selves are our friends. When I'm around Leon it seems as if I'm the most shy and nervous person to have ever lived. So this is why I almost always text him.

The bus rides are the worst.

All I do is make small talk while we sit there looking everywhere, but each other's faces. Our feet in the aisle way with our knees hitting every time the bus goes over a bump. After we had our normal conversation of how our day was the awkward tension becomes clear. When my mouth decides to ask a stupid question without consulting my brain I want to smack myself in the head.
"What are you listening to?" I ask.

"Ain't no rest for the wicked by Cage the Elephant." He replies a small smile growing on his lips. I nodded.

"Oh okay."

Damn why? Why do I always tend to make things worse. He turns around facing forward in his seat so I see a profile view of him. Clearly he has had enough of me for today. I sigh pushing myself back into the corner of this uncomfortable bus seat. Curling up into a ball I try to fall asleep, but my thoughts are clouded with thoughts of the kid sitting across from me.
Later that night after a long tiring night of watching Netflix I fall into bed. Not even bothering to do my homework. I pull out my phone for the first time seeing I have 3 new text messages. I sigh seeing the first two are from my annoying friend Talia and the last one from my best friend Mason. I set my phone on my nightstand; getting comfy in my small twin sized bed. I called my dog Roxy who came running into my room. She jumped onto my bed and padded up to me. I lifted the covers and she crawled under into her normal sleeping spot.

"Goodnight Roxy I love you."

I whispered as I shut my eyes letting the darkness seep into my vision. After my mind finally decided to slow down and rest. I slowly drifted off to sleep. I felt like I had only been asleep for about 10 mins when my phone went off. I groaned knowing it was probably Talia who never goes to sleep. I picked up my phone the bright glow of the screen hurting my eyes. I squinted at the phone seeing it was Leon. My breathing stopped when I read the message.

"Kade I can't hold this back any longer, and I won't be able to sleep until you know..." The message stopped. Not even a second later another message came through.

"I want to be gay for you."

I could feel my heart beat pick up in my chest as I read the message over and over again. Am I dreaming? I must be. Wait what time is it? I looked at the clock 2:19 AM. I rubbed my eyes. This can't be real. I'm dreaming. I'm just dreaming. I fell back onto my pillow clutching the phone to my chest. My breathing was rapid. My heart was still thumping like crazy. Leon is gay, or rather he wants to be. He has feelings for me. He might actually like me in the same way I like him. All of these thoughts ran through my head as I slowly fell back to sleep exhaustion came over me.