𝙇𝙄𝙑𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙔𝙊𝙐

03

The days were going too fast to Jisung's liking. The exam was soon, the graduation was soon, so Minho didn't come to the yard as often. Jisung was already missing him, looking at the bench as he usually would. But these times, without Minho being there. He sighed.

   
"I can't do this, it hurts so much. I miss him so much. Of course, he is busy studying and thinking about what to do next with his life. And he will be completely gone too. Am I supposed to forget him? I'm a dumb for loving him this much from far away."
   
   
He teared up without noticing his best friend coming towards him. Felix saw the tears that almost came out of the boy's eyes as he approached, worried.

 
"Sungie, you okay?"
  
   
Jisung looked at his friend, tears started to run down on his cheeks. He reached for a hug and Felix stretched his arms with a sad smile, letting Jisung cry in his shoulder.
   
   
"Felix, I don't know what to do! He's gonna go soon. I still don't want to be selfish and hold him back. It hurts. Do I have to forget him? I don't wanna forget him. I couldn't even get to know him. Why am I such a coward?"
   
   
He started to sob as his friend stroked his hair.
   
  
"Sungie..."
   
  
Felix was sad for his friend being hopelessly in love. He teared up and sighed, then tightened his arms around the boy, patting his back, letting the tears wet his sweatshirt.

   
"Jisung, you don't have to give up. You don't even know where is he going. Maybe you should get his phone number for contact, y'know?"
    

Jisung broke the hug and wiped his tears with his sleeves.
  
  
"I can't talk to him anymore Felix. I don't wanna fall harder for him only to have to forget him."
   
   
"But maybe you should at least ask where is he going? You could visit each other!"
   
    
"But I don't even know if he likes me back! He knows my name but it's like we are just acquaintances. Won't he find it weird?"
    
   
"Still, ask him. At least YOU could give him a visit. And no, he wouldn't. He hugged you, remember? At least you can be sure that he cares about you."
    
   
Jisung looked at his friends face, backing up a little.
   
    
"But it would hurt me... I don't wanna experience this feeling again. And what if he doesn't care specially about me and just wanted to help a acquaintance who was sad? Don't make me dream, please..."
   
   
"We all are gonna go somewhere else Jisung, it means you don't have anything to lose. And you already will experience that feeling again. Even I already decided that I want to live at another town for the university. Maybe you should start to think about your own future?" 
   

Jisung sniffed and went silent for a few minutes, worrying Felix without noticing. His face was kind of different the one he made while daydreaming. He turned to his friend, rubbing his eye like a kid.

''I guess I'll focus on my own future. Thank you, Felix.''
   
    

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Jisung was at the window, again. Even if he knew that the older wouldn't be there, he couldn't help himself.
   
   
"The time that he hugged me was a legend. I still can't believe it. He, fucking, hugged me! His voice was so soft, his gaze was so beautiful. He was worried about me! Why do I still think that he doesn't care about me? I don't get myself! But again, I would do the same if I saw a person that I see almost everyday who's smiling to me while they are crying, I would be worried too. Hmmm, but I wouldn't hug though."
   
   
His eyes followed the boy who's coming out of the building, going towards the bench.
   
   
"Woah, he came to the yard! Wait, what's he doing with a notebook, won't he read as he usually do?"
    
  
Jisung was watching the boy, seeing a different face the older was doing. He looked like he was a little bit bothered. He was not reading this time, he was writing something in a test book, was he studying? Why would he study at the yard? It didn't look comfortable at all.