Emo Idiot

Cutting?

Blaze POV

After Dragon left I thought about my life, my story, me. I am home alone because my Aunt is at work , my parents thought I was a disgrace and then died, my siblings hated me and wanted ME to die instead they died. I looked at my scarred skin and sighed. When I cut. I started thinking again. Should I cut, should I make the misery go away, should I forget my pain and replace it with physical pain? Yes. I should and will. I mean yeah I have a friend who understands me but. Will he betray me. Or worse will he beat me. I shuddered at the thought and grabbed my razor. I got the blade and went into the bathroom thinking I can't believe I am doing this again. I held the blade up to my skin and dragged it across my skin humming a self harm poem that I only know the rhythm to. When I am done I have five cuts on my arms each and four cuts on each thigh. I sigh grab stuff and take a shower till I see no blood falling which took a while. I wash my hair and the soap starts to sting my cuts but I ignore it. I like the pain. I know I know call me psycho but when you have years and years off mental pain it is nice to have physical pain sometimes. Once I finish my shower which was like 1 hour and a 1/2 I see multiple texts from Dragon. Yeah I gave him my number.

Drag da boss: Hey kid wanna hangout tomorrow
Drag da boss: uhhhh Blaze you ok
Drag da boss: Hello are you there
Drag da boss: hi hi hi hi talk to meeeeee
Drag da boss: please

He seemed desperate so I texted him back

Blaze the fire: Yeah! I would love to hang out tomorrow!!!
Drag da boss: oh I thought you died what took you so long to answer?
Blaze the fire: shower I got carried away soz dude😔
Drag da boss: it's alright kid 🐶

Then we just talked with emojis so I'm guessing you don't want to see that umm yeah about the kid thing. He calls me kid alot dunno why.

A/N I know it was short I Am Sorry!!! I promised myself I will update every day and I had no ideas so yeah hope you enjoyed. BTWS it is just a filler so it might be crappy and I woke up not to long ago and I am tired as fluff man anyways need to go cry and cuddle with my adorable kitten BYE!!!!!

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