thought trough life

another day, another gay

This is pride month! Wow!
My question is- how am i supposed to Celebrate? Like I'm one of them or an ally?
God I don't even know myself. Why emotions soo hard?
Why don't they teach us about emotions??
Like- I know that maybe at younger age they talk with you about it,
but after that- nothing! Unless you're depressed.
Which is fine, you know?
You don't have to the perfect human.
You don't need to please anyone.
Do what you want!
But the question is.. do I know what I want?
Hi people. Im here again. In the middle of the night. Questioning my existence.
I love music. And art. But I dont like
Museums. Why? I don't know.
I just wondering, if one day, someone is gonna see it except me.
Probably not. Now I'm sad. Bloody great.
I'm not British. They have great accent.
We cant see the Stars most of the time. Where I'm from.
Because of toxic air and something like that. Oh and because of the lights. On earth I mean.
I really want to see the sky full of stars.
I want to feel like I'm tiny.
But at the same time I want to feel huge!
Like I can have the world in my hand.
You know that all the people you see on the street have their own lives? 
Crazy right?
My life so tiny.
Music is beautiful.
And I surrounded by people who don't give a shit about me.
I mean, I have friends and people.
And they do give a shit about me.
But when you don't know yourself,
Nobody know you.
I guess? What the hell am I writing
About?
Bye
Bye bye