𝐌𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐍 𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐘 | C. Leclerc

3.

AUGUST 4th 22, THURSDAY


Three days, It had been three days since my mother's unexpected death,Just like when my father died I was placed into my own little world. We're I could just escape from the hell I was in and I could live out my own little fairytale. One where I wasn't alone. My mother was alive, my father was alive. One where Charles was still in my life. Right by my side like he promised. Just one big happy family. And when I was brought back into reality it was all just one big blur.

It really had me thinking why me? What did I do to deserve this? Why why why? Of course I could ask myself those question a million times. Drive my self crazy even. But I'd known truly I would never get an answer, one I so desperately wanted.

My mother's funeral was today. Quick I know, just three days after  but we where able to get it done. Honestly a part of me was glad to let go quickly. Maybe i would be able to move on and forget. Although deep down how could you even forget your own mother?

I was ushered out of my thoughts by a ringing, My phone. I sighed looking down at the contact. It was lavani.She was the first I had called. She was a mess. My mom has become a mother to her as well over time. As her own mother had left her and her father when she was a kid. She was heading here to Nice, from Spain. A quick flight, she was to be here in a couple hours. The funeral wasn't until later today.

I watched my phone continue to ring. I didn't pick up. I didn't feel like it. She should understand. I didn't feel like talking, I knew I would have to later today and I wasn't looking forward to it.

A lot of people had called me the past couple of days. Some I hadn't a clue to remember who they even were. But it was nice I suppose. But there was one person I was waiting to call me.  And if you'd guess Charles you'd be correct. I would assume he still have my number.

And we'll he definitely had to know, it had been on the news that The 90s supermodel NADINE WELLS had been in a fatal car accident.  I wasn't sure what I'd aspected from him.

Grabbing my phone an keys I left out the front door. It was now 4:30, the funeral was at 6pm. I went into my garage unlocking my car and getting in. I back out before driving off.  About 30 minutes later I arrived at the funeral house.

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A lot of people were here. I smiled as I passed people making my way outside. Some I had known since childhood. Giving condolences to each, thanking them for being here.  Looking around I saw my brother with a couple friends of his. Others all sitting around patiently on the old bench's for the service to start. I found Lavani, abbi and Bailey all sitting quietly talking. They noticed me as I made my way to them, sitting down on the chair.

"Hello guys, thank you for being here." I said quietly giving each of them a short hug.

"Of course cherry, we wouldn't miss this, Nadine was like a mother to all three of us." Lavani said slightly gesturing to abbi and Bailey.

"We'll it means a lot to me really, I truly don't know what to do anymore." I said tears threatening to fall.

"We'll always be here for you cherry, just say the word." Abbi said

I nodded giving her a kind smile. My brother now made his way over to us. Making his way through people giving small smiles, and thank you like I had done before.

" It's 5:58 the service is starting." Delano said

"Right well let's go inside." I said softly getting up quickly. I was at an emotional state currently and I didn't want anyone to see me as I was.

Lavani caught up to me quickly grabbing my hand softly as she squeezed my hand reassuringly.

"It'll be okay cherry pie." She said, opening the door for us as we made in it side. We took a corner and got to our respective seats. In the front being lavani, Me then my brother, next to my brother abbi and Bailey, then so on. Looking around I noticed a lot of familiar faces. A wide variety of people, consisting of celebrities ( futbal friends of Delanos) friends of my mothers and fathers. And many more. I had expected a lot, but slyly looking around the one person I was wanting here wasn't.

The funeral officiant soon came in taking the front of the room as the noises calmed down. The officiant soon started the funeral ceremony.

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The ceremony went perfectly. It lasted about an hour. I had shed a few tears during so, even with me trying my hardest not to.

I was now alone again though this time on the small balcony opening up to the outside in the church. I was leaning up against the railing as I watched some leave. Most of everyone was still in the church though, some still paying respect for my mother, another's catching up with family members.

I wasn't sure how to feel, my emotions were something I never had been able to control. Even as being such the closed off person I was. I knew I was sad of course I was. I knew that I probably would never be happy again, even if I ever was to begin with. I felt utterly useless.

The weather was amazing. Wasn't to hot wasn't to cold. Unlike my father funeral where it was raining all day. It would be getting dark soon. And that meant that these would be the final moments with my mother. I really needed a break, just a break from life. If only I could just die let the pain ease and come back when it would be all better. No more pain, no more lying, no more hiding just all normal like how it used to be.

Staring up at the sky I admired what happened to be the beautiful sunset I had ever seen.

I grabbed my phone out of the pocket of my pants. Not bothering to go into it just sliding over from the Lock Screen, to the camera. I take a couple photos of the sky each one seeming to get better with each take.

I look at the photos I'd taken, tears now falling from my face. Looking at the pictures it made me really realize I wasn't ready, it was an indescribable feeling. I was stuck, I needed to let it out but I couldn't. Sighing I placed my phone back in my pocket. I lent back up against the railing. Starring up at the sky once again. I wasn't sure how long I'd been up here, and I knew I needed to go back to the rest. I slowly let my hands fall from the rails. Though before I turned around I heard a voice, one I had not heard in years. A French accent. The voice so familiar,soft, sweet. One I had longed for, for so so long.

"It's beautiful isn't it cerise?"

𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄
damn. Sorry it's been a while since I've updated, I've recently went on a trip and just haven't been motivated. I'm sorry if this wasn't the chapter you expected I know it's kinda short but expect more chapters soon!!