Maybe... I should learn how to move on
Ever since we parted ways I have noticed the seasons change physically, yes... But for me it is as if I am stuck in that winter, that deadly breeze, that gush of wind that for some reason always took my breath away. If I have to be absolutely sincere, for me nothing changed I am still stuck in that same time loop; waiting for the hours to pass by, dissolving into those saturated rays of sun, wishing that hopefully things are different for him.
I wouldn't lie, I have been as far from myself as one can be. Without him it's as if nature has changed it's course because nothing feels the same anymore. That once heart melting sunshine is now a slap in the face from the universe, the gentle autumn rain now a reflection of the storm inside me.
Now dear reader you may be a questioning me? "Who the hell are you?"
The truth is I am still in the process of finding out.
Because I don't even know the answer to that anymore.
All I know is that...
I am from my future...
