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Lisztomania

"It's a dog Ayan and I feeding for a while," Akk said while playing with a very eager pup.

"Do the teachers know about him?" Wat asked as he kneeled on the ground to play with Singto. Who's attention was still on Akk given the familiarity with each other.

"I don't think so, why?"

"Nothing, I just wouldn't want them to get rid of such a good boy," Wat said says to Singto, his attention finally on Wat. The pup ran around the duo playfully running around them.

"So are we going to class or not?"

"Do you want to? Because I honestly don't, this is a great stress reliever right now." Akk said, his eyes following Singto as the dog ran away at the sight of a student eating.

"What's stressing you out?"

"College," Akk responds as the duo gets up and heads towards the bleachers. "But to be fair who isn't stressing about college."

"I'm not." The statement stopped Akk in his tracks as he stares at Wat in disbelief. He assumed that Wat would be the one person who would be stressing about college the most. Because of his parents.

"Why?"

"I don't know, I should be stressed but I'm not. Isn't that weird?"

"Yeah, it is." Wat stopped walking and looked back, finally realizing that Akk had stopped. Wat watched as Akk walked up putting his hand on his shoulder. "I only think it's weird because that's not how I deal with stress. I just mostly cry and think about how big of a disappointment I am to everyone I know."

"I just listen to music and..." Wat hesitated, a long pause that Akk noticed as he sat down on the bleachers signaling for Wat to sit next to him. "I don't know why I can't say it to you," Wat said as he sat down next.

"You don't have to, I get what you mean. I guess we don't talk about our feelings to each other that much."

"I mean you have Ayan and Khan has Thua. And I have N-no one."

"You have me," Akk said giving Wat a playful push. "And Khan I guess."

"College is so stressful." Wat blurted out, he leaned back to get comfortable. "And we are not even starting yet. I wanna be a filmmaker, but I don't think my parents will let me. And I don't have the money to pay for the tuition myself."

"You're lucky I don't even know what I'm going to major in. I didn't have much of a plan other than focusing on being head student prefect."

"Do you have a plan now?"

"No." Akk laughed. "I think everyone has a plan except for me."

"Not really, I'm not sure if being a filmmaker is going to work."

"I think you're gonna make a great filmmaker, director, or something. But you know what I think? You're a coward. You think you're doing what you want but you're not. You are running in a circle because you're scared of what might happen if you leave your safety circle."

Wat was speechless, he didn't know how to respond because deep down he knew that Akk was right. He is scared, terrified even. He could accomplish his goals but he's too scared. All this time he's been holding onto his parents disapproval to stop him from his dream.

"Hey, guys!"

"Jams! What are you doing here?" Wat asked breaking his daze.

"We didn't want to go to class, plus the teacher is being so bitchy right now," Jamnian said.

"He is not." Jamnan and Jamnong corrected.

"Anyways, what are you guys doing here?"

"Same thing minus the bitchy part." Wat answered.