Are you really ok?

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Aether sighed. This was no good. He couldn't sleep. His body was shaking uncontrollably...that urge getting stronger and stronger by the second. There was no reason for it too. Everything was fine, perfect even. His lover next to him in bed, smiling and lightly snoring, obviously having a good dream.

He didn't want to wake Dew from the shaking so he got up and sat down on the white carpet, staring out the window that was in-front of it. The sky was pitch black, the moon illuminating the sky. Usually this view calms him but the shaking only intensified. He felt a pit in his stomach. His arms yearning for attention. He couldn't fight this urge any longer.

The ghoul sighed, disappointed in himself. He was so weak, he couldn't even make it a month. Aether skimmed the room, trying to remember where he put it. He jumped to his feet and headed to the cd collection they had. Dew collected cds even tho he had nothing to play them with.

As aether skimmed through the collection, he paused once he saw undertow by tool. Did he really want to go through with this? No. Could he help it though? Also no. He opened the case and pulled out the bloodied razor. He hadn't bother to clean it last time.

He plopped back down on the carpet, staring at the sky once again. He pulled off his long sleeve shirt and ran his hands over the scars that dew had never seen. He looked back at the male sleeping. 'Fuck...this is so wrong.'

He squeezed his eyes shut as he slowly drags the razor across the scars, crimson liquid spilling on the carpet. He didn't even think about the carpet being white...shit. Once he opened his eyes he panicked, the wound was pouring out blood, yellow peaking through the blood. Aether whined as the cut started to sting like a mfer.

He moved to he right arm that was almost completely bare. He hand shook as he held the razor above his arm. 'One...two..' he counted down and quickly sliced his arm multiple times. The sound of skin continuously ripping rang in his ears. He didn't stop until he hit another cut on accident, making him curse loudly.  Both of his arms now completely red. "Mngh..." he groaned as he spread apart the cut on his left arm, admiring the depth. Crimson dripping on the carpet.

He heard a tussle behind him and quickly scrambled for his shirt, trying to cover his arms but was too late. "Baby?" The water ghoul croaked out, his voice sounding like he was in the verge of tears. Aether stared at the blood pool beneath him, not bothering to look behind him. Dewdrop quickly dropped to his knees and hugged his lover from behind.

"Honey...oh god..." Dew remained calm, squeezing the man who was very lightheaded. Aether's glossy eyes looked back at the ghoul with dismay. He tried to speak but he choked on his saliva. Aether was disgusted with himself. He didn't want his lover to see him like this.

Dewdrop frowned softly at the ghoul before him. 'Let's get you cleaned, ok?' He rubbed Aether's shoulder and gave him a reassuring smile. The man nodded and followed the short ghoul towards the bathroom.

Dew started the shower and stripped, Aether doing the same. As soon as the ghoul stepped under the water, he quickly retracted his arm from the water. The hot water stinging the fresh wounds. "Is it too hot?"

"No, it just stings." He looked down at the wounds, still slightly bleeding. "Well, it's going to sting love." He giggled. Aether sighed and placed his arms under the water. This was tourture. "Wait, don't just let the water hit your arms directly. That's gonna hurt more. Here." The water ghoul grabbed Aether's right arm and dabbed a wet cloth on his arm. It still hurt but not as bad as the water hitting it directly.

After their shower, dew sat aether on the toilet. "I'm gonna get clothes real quick. Would you grad the first aid kit under the sink for me?" Aether nodded and did as he was told.

"Ok here's some underwear and pants, I'll give you the shirt once I'm done." Dewdrop handed the taller male his clothing. "Alright, is it ok if I touch your arm?" "Yeah." Dew smiled and reached for Aether right arm. He grabbed the needle started stitching him up as he was taught. Aether whined and scrunched his nose as the needle penetrated his skin. "You good?" The water ghoul questioned his lover. 'Mhm' he hummed.

As Dew finished patching up the quintessence ghoul, he gave the man a small peck on the forehead. "I love you, Aether." He started to tear up as he spoke. "I'm so sorry I didn't help you any sooner...I knew something was wrong but I kept doubting myself and acting like everything was ok." The water ghoul sniffled and hugged his lover.

"I-I'm sorry I didn't say anything baby." Aether replied. He felt horrible. He didn't want his lover to be sad, especially if the cause was him. Dew wiped the tears from his face and pulled aether into a hug. Squeezing him as tight as he could, never to let go. He hated the fact that aether was struggling alone.

Dew hummed as aether nuzzled his face into his neck. Slight sobs could be heard from the man. They stood there for a while, dew rubbing the ghouls back slowly. "I love you dew...I love you so much." Aether's voice was cracking as he spoke but he didn't care.

"I love you too honey." He whispered.

A/N
I know none of my followers are reading this bc I post strangers things fanfics so, hello new people! Sorry for the heartbreak but I've have this stuck in my head for so long and I had to write it. I love era 3 dewther sm🐍

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