POV:
Your older brother died and you fell into depression, but then you found drugs. Tom, your boyfriend starts to get worried about you after he found out.
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YOUR POV
I get to my house where i was now alone because my boyfriend Tom is on his tour.
I'm lucky that he is there because i don't want him to see me like this.
Addicted.
Tonight as useal i was in some old park where i left some injection, i don't care if anyone saw me, i don't care if someone gets hurt. I think i don't care about what would Tom think. He was supposed to be here and help me through this. When i wanted to tell him he said that he really love me but he doesn't have a time. So basicly he doesn't even know.
I get in our kitchen and opened fridge and take out some vodka. I opened it and push the bottom off and started to drink it without a pause.
When the bottle was empty i started to walk to bathroom so i could wash my face and calm little down.
When i looked at myself in tye mirror i saw my eyes. Now i understand why it is so blurry. They are totally red.
But that wasn't the only thing i saw, i saw Tom ? No it can't be Tom he is on his tour.
or ?
,,Y/N...?" asked Tom who is really here. I know i said that i don't want him to see me like that but i think i don't care now ,,what is it ?" i asked not intrested and looked at hands and started to wash them.
He didn't said anything, he was just looking at me through the mirror, i could feel it.
,,Y/N what the fuck happend ?" he said a little louder ,,god Tom don't yell i think i have a really bad headache" i said and started to walk away from him and bathroom.
,,i don't understand Y/N, i came back home to suprise you and you are so drunk and even mad at me ?! shouldn't i be the one mad who is mad ?!" he asked again yelling, ok Tom, that was off limits.
,,when i called you that something imporant happend and remember what you said ? you said that you love me but you don't have time. My fucking brother died Tom, and i fucking needed you. So don't go on me with this ok ? i am the one who is hurt not you!" i screamed and looked at him. He totally went pale so i think he was my eyes or hands.
He started walking to me and i didn't move ,,please don't tell you pricked those awfull thing into you...." he said with sad voice and i could saw after some time that he had water eyes.
,,if i say yes will you tell me "not right now meine liebe because i don't have time when i am on my tour, but you will tell me after"" i said mocking his voice.
,,how much did you take ?" he asked and i chuckled ,,so right now you care ?" i asked and he hugged me.
That hug was very good. I needed that hug. I started to fall asleep on Tom's shoulder.
TOM POV:
I am such a horrible boyfriend. I should be with her or atleast let her tell whats wrong.
I was hugging her so long, she rested her head on my shoulder. After two minutes i didn't feel her heart beat or her chest going up and down.
I started to shake with her but nothing i let her on the couch and grabbed her phone and started to cal ambulance.
It was still ringing ,,fuck come one Y/N, i love you so much you can't leave me" i said crying when someone finally picked up ,,my girfriend pricked some drugs snd i think she had them so much, her heart doesn't beat and she doesn't breath" i said and the person asked for adress i quickly said that and they said they will be here in one or two minutes.
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Today i was going to a flower shop to buy some pretty flowers to my beautiful girlfriend.
I payed the lady and started to make my way into the cementery.
I walked to her and her head fall into my shoulder, she was sitting infront of her brother's grave.
,,there are some beautiful flowers for my beautiful girlfriend" i said and kissed her fore head. She take the flowers from me and one of the rose she put on her brother's grave.
,,he would be pround of you" i said and she laughed ,,about what ? that i almost killed myself ?" she asked and i shook my head ,,no, that after one year you re still standing here, more then some people who were like you didn't make it. You are so strong Y/N" i said and she smilled at me.
,,thank you so much Tommy, i will love you forever" she said and sat on my lap and hug me. I wrapped my hands around her waist ,,me too Y/N me too" i said.
She was my drug.
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I know that you were thinking thet you're gonna be dead 💀
