Nang makapasok ako ng bahay ay agad akong napasapo ng noo.
Nakalimutan ko na i-post for close friends yung IG story ko!
I immediately opened my phone to delete the story. Mabuti na lang at konti pa lang ang naka-view.
Si Charles kasi eh, hindi ko na gets! He's been acting weird... para siyang boyfriend ko kung makaselos! Akala niya ba ay hindi ko nano-notice ang pagiging seloso niya? From Carlos... ngayon kay Lewis!
I want to believe na we're only friends. I treasure him as a person, and I don't want to ruin that. Paano na lang ang friendship namin kapag naging mag-jowa na kami officially? Hindi ko kaya na mawala siya sa buhay ko.
I sighed, before opening my dms.
rose_edeline: stop it
cl16priv: wdym
rose_edeline: i'm not yours. stop acting jealous
cl16priv: im not
rose_edeline: stop denying it, charles
rose_edeline: im your pretend girlfriend
rose_edeline: and that's it
cl16priv: we need to talk
I'm nervous. Alam ko na pag-uusapan namin kung anong meron sa aming dalawa. And I'm not yet ready.
Hindi na ako nag-reply pa at pinatay na lang ang phone ko. Bukas ko na siya poproblemahin.
As usual, I woke up with my dad's text message na umalis na siya ng bahay. I checked the clock and it says it's already 2pm.
I opened my Instagram and walang message si Charles after nung kagabi.
Pumasok ako ng bathroom para maligo at magbihis. Doon na lang muna ako tatambay kina Carlos habang hinihintay na bumalik si dad.
"Tía! Tío!" Tawag ko sa kanila. "Carlos?"
"Red..." Imbis na ang pamilya Sainz ang magwe-welcome sa akin, bumungad sa harapan ko si Charles.
"We need to talk," sambit niya.
I forcefully entered the house para hanapin sina Tía at Tío pero hindi ko sila mahanap.
"Carlos went somewhere with his parents. They left the house with me."
Malakas ata tiwala ng mga Sainz kay Charles, ibinilin ba naman ang buong buhay sa kaniya?
Umupo ako sa sofa, I chose the seat farthest from him.
"Talk,"
"I'm sorry. I know it was rude of me. I'm just... I've never been this jealous in my whole life, Red. The thought of you with another man makes me.."
"Stop it, Charles." Putol ko sa sasabihin niya. "We are not together. You're just confused."
"Confused?" He scoffed. "Red, I know you can feel it too." He looked at me, pain in his eyes.
"I don't," matigas na sambit ko sa kaniya. "Charles, you're just hung up on our fake relationship. You're blinded by the idea that the public sees me as your lover."
"Red, I know my feelings. I like you."
"But Charles..."
"I like you, okay? As a woman."
"And I want this whole thing... to be real."
He moved closer to me. Ngayon ay isang metro na lang ang layo namin.
"I want you to be mine. And me to be yours. Let's do it for real."
He's now beside me, trying to reach for my hand. Kinuyom ko ang mga kamao ko para pigilan ang sarili ko.
Maybe it's because I'm fresh from a breakup pero I don't think I can start a serious relationship as of the moment.
I like the idea of having him, but as a friend. Minsan ay kinikilig ako, pero crush lang 'yun!
Parang mga harmless crush sa school during intrams.... mga sudden and unplanned crushes kapag may poging kasakay sa jeep. Ganoon lang 'yon!
"I'm not yet ready, Charles. I don't think I love you yet." I admitted.
"No one's forcing you to love me."
"I just want to start a relationship with you. A casual romantic relationship."
I looked at him, I can see na he's also trying to keep his cool.
"Let's date. Let's give it a try, Red?"
"But I don't want a serious relationship yet, Charles. My ex gave me too much pain and heartbreak. I'm not ready to risk..."
"As what I've said... casual. We enjoy things and have fun together, while dating. We can date for a few months, if you think I'm still not worthy as your boyfriend, we can always end the relationship."
"Then what? Ruin us?" I asked him.
"We can be friends again. It's only a casual relationship, Red. We can always be friends again."
"I don't know, Charles. I've only done one serious relationship, with marriage in mind. I don't know how to keep a relationship casual."
"You don't have to be afraid. I'm with you," he gently kissed my hand, trying to relax me.
I breathed deeply, trying to think.
"As long as we don't ruin our friendship, okay then. I really like you as a person, Charles. I want you to remain constant in my life."
He smiled and pulled me into a hug.
"I will be. You'll have me forever," he tightened our hug.
"So... am I really your girlfriend now?" I asked him.
"Mmhm.." he hummed in agreement.
Okay then, Charles Leclerc is really my boyfriend now.
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Amour Rouge (Red Love)
FanfictionLove and marriage are two things that Charles doesn't believe in. He's one of the best Formula 1 drivers known worldwide and among the women who are crazy about him, there is still one who doesn't know his existence. Not until she was somehow forced...
