My Diary (Oneshot)

"Oh right, where's Lin?" Josephine asks "She went to her intersection."-Carlene. "That's now? But it's Saturday" "Yeah and I hope they win" Carlene answered while reading manhwa on her phone.

Josephine continued to watch her favorite K-pop when she noticed a black notebook that seems like all the darkness in the world covered it. "Hey, isn't that Lins notebook she always carries around?" "Really? She actually forgot her diary?" "That's her diary? I know she loves the Death Note but I didn't think she'd go that far" Josephine said jokingly.

They looked at each other for a few seconds then raced to reach and read the book first. Josephine got it first and didn't want to let Carlene to read a single letter. But as soon as she read the following sentences, her wide smile slowly disappeared. Carlene took advantage of Josephines guard down but Josephine did not care anymore as she is preoccupied on reading. Carlene, like Josephine, her smile reaching her ear disappeared slowly as she read the following lines.

Dear Diary, today, my day feels like shit again since I'm also weird today. I guess they call me that since I sing at a random time. Or probably because I stared blankly on the electric fan for like 10 minutes. I mean, does no one wonder if the nail got loosened and the electric fan fall on top of my classmates head and since he's secretly playing with fire in school, what if it explodes? Will he die or just injured? I wonder what a dying person looks like in face to face not just in dramas. Will they be beautiful covered in scarlet blood head to toe?"

"Damn it. It's starting again." Josephine said worriedly. "Or did it even stop?" Carlene added "But is she being bullied again?"

"Dear diary, I really like my day today. When I told Nicole my weird thoughts, she said that she too sometimes have the same thoughts. I felt very happy and started to tell her my whole story life. I really like it when she just listen to my stories without interrupting and agrees after. It felt like I found where I truly belong. I also think that the reason I like her is because she's smart and listens well to my stories. After All, I'm very fond of smart and kind people. I like Yurian too because she's intelligent in Mathematics. I remember, there was a time when we both got to be the Top 1 in Mathematics while with Nicole, We're both Top 1 in Business Math. I really like smart and kind people."

"At least this page is close to normal." Carlene just nodded.

"Dear diary, the likeness I feel with Nicole is a little weird. Probably because I'm 'weird' jk. Anyways, yeah so, it's a little weird because I realized that I don't like it when she hug another person. I want her to hug me not just anyone. I guess its jealousy? Or possessiveness? But yeah, that disappeared the moment I knew that it's her sister. Oh my gosh, am I bi?"

"Lol, didn't knew that" Carlene said "My goodness! Is she?" Josephine added

"Dear diary, today I really don't like how Josephine, my oldest sister, behaves this days. I mean, she uses her authority in the wrong way. Like, if she's suffering, you have to suffer too. For example, When Dad ordered her to go buy something outside, she insists Carlene to do it since she has Menstruation pain and claims that its killing her. But Carlene too is going to that phase at the same time so her excuses got ignored. When she was about to go out, she took Carlenes phone and said "it hurts right? Then just rest" And since she's the oldest, Carlene had no say. And while she was away, Carlene on the meantime, hid her laptop then they fought when she got home. That's just one example and not even the worst. That's why my respect on her decreased and still decreasing right now.

"..." Josephine went quiet. Carlene was nervous and curious how she will react but just continued.

"Dear diary, today, I found the reason why I liked Nicole very much. It all started with an injured cat. At school, we found a little cat having trouble with walking. My classmates cared for the cat deeply especially Nicole but I don't know why. I mean, it doesn't have any special characteristic. Its ugly and crippled so why? All I can feel is pity for the cat. So I said: "why not just kill it to end its suffering?" Then, they looked at me uncomfortably. Why? "What? Isn't that better for him" I said as I pointed at the cat "You're Evil!" Said Nicole. "Why am I evil? Death is luxury you know? Specially for people or animals like him. It's better to just end his pain. Don't you agree?" "No, I don't. Everyone has a right to live." Nicole seems to detest the idea. Why? "Why? Why don't you agree? Besides, aren't any of you curious if an animals bone can be cut by scissor? It'be good for both of us too. He'll die peacefully not feeling any pain anymore while we can satisfy our curiosity. I think it'll be fun!" But then, they hated the idea. They said I'm creepy and evil. Why? I thought Nicole understands me? And ever since then, I never liked Nicole the same way as before. I came to the conclusion that I liked her because I thought that someone finally understands me. I thought I'm not alone I really that bad?"

"That is creepy." "Add her lack of common sense too." "And her lack in sense of humor" "She IS weird"
"But seriously, her psychopathic tendencies is getting worse. Should we talk her with it?"

"Dear diary, today, I asked Josephine on how to stop my bad habit.You see, I have a bad habit of cutting myself with blade or scissor whenever I feel depress. But she's just gaslighting me and I hate her for that. I learned my lesson to not ask Josephine about my situations since this always happens and everytime, she just continue to gaslight me so I asked my Dad instead. I can't stop it because I unconsciously do it. Like, my mind just agrees to it. Dad said to pray and stop thinking about it. Dad said I'll need to have a strong desire to stop it. But I still have my suspicions like, "do I really wanna stop it?"

"She just thinks about it. That's on her. She can stop it but don't want to. I honestly don't get people like that." Josephine added. "Neither do I but it's better to just give an advice than to blame someone." Carlene then closed the book "Why? We're not even finish yet" "I think its better to hear things like this from her mouth. The things she writes are deep and its not something that she can say easily yet, we went on and read it. We invaded her privacy. I think what we read is enough." "Aigoo.."

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Lol this is a complete nonsense honestly..