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2020
We rarely got a break. It was never ending.
Today, I got a chance to breathe. It was nice. I could wake up in my bed, and not have to be moving my ass at 6:00 am or earlier. The group decided to take a small, few day long break, just to get a chance to breathe. It was only about four days, so it's not like Chan, Felix, and I could visit home. Most of us actually just put ourselves in the dorms, for the sole purpose of not having to do anything.
I woke up that morning, puffy faced and sleepy. I just wanted to get breakfast and go back to my room without bothering anyone, or being bothered. I was wearing an oversized shirt as well as some pair of soft shorts that I found in my laundry pile. I had my pair of black headphones of which I could barely hear anything while wearing them. I didn't even bother to put my glasses on.
I was in our kitchen making toast and then going back to my room. Behind me I could hear Felix's morning voice, even through my headphones. It honestly made me jump a bit. "Morning," I replied back.
Not too much later, Minho walked in. "Hey," I tiredly smiled. He smiled and nodded as a reply back. Ever since what happened on set, something was off between us. Barely anything happened too! Pretty much nothing! I didn't understand, I couldn't put my finger on it. I was pretty blind to whatever was going on. I guess I was blind, it's not like I had my glasses on.
I made my breakfast and took it back to my room and just sat there, listening to my music, in peace. Sometimes I would even sing, it was peaceful, the nothingness was peaceful.
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Later on, it was storming. Storms didn't usually bother me, but loud noises did. I hated them. They made me feel like curling up into a fetal position and hiding. And this storm was loud, the thunder was nearby. I was sitting at my desk, tapping my fingers and bouncing my leg. I had my headphones on, but it was different, I was by myself. I needed a hug. I know it sounds cheesy, but I don't remember the last time someone showed me any sort of physical affection. I was sitting in my swivel chair with my face buried in my knees. I soon heard a knock on the door.
"... Soojin..?"
"Come in"
Minho opened the door. He must've figured out how stressed I was by the noise. He was probably one of the few people who I told. It's not that I didn't want people to know, it just never came up in conversation.
He shut my door. "Are you okay?" he asked me.
"No." He walked over and hugged me. The only thing I wanted.
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A/N
HIATUS OVER... sry it was so much longer. I've kinda had writers block, but im alive :] SO I ALSO KINDA SAW TWICE WHILE I WAS GONE... it was so good. Dahyun is so funny irl T-T Sry the end of this was rushed i had a burst of energy and now I dont. it's like 3:30 am lol. I might edit later
