The day after I killed my self I walked down stairs and enjoyed a simmering breakfast. I watered the new cilantro plant that my mom bought and the flowers outside too. Then sat down to listen to the birds chirping while listening to a playlist me and my friend made. Felt the sun's ray on the blue skies morning and saw the moss in-between the cracks of the pavement.
The day after I killed myself I texted the group chat a strange and funny photo. I texted my friend and misspelt a word and had autocorrect help. Knowing that I had no restrictions I played on a call with my friend sometimes with the whole group playing.
The day after I killed my self I made chocolate milk with my mom and drank it in the winter. The day after I killed my self I watered the plants without knowing it rained and killed them.
The day after I killed my self I found someone to love and to love me. I would then plan dates with them proud of who I was dating. No cares in the world. Get butterflies whenever I get a notification hoping it's them. We didn't care about one single person, place, time frame or law. We would share food and order a milkshake with only one straw or have dumb competitions to see who can finish the bowl reman first.
The day after I killed myself I saved up enough money to finally be my own boss. I'd pay off all debt and live rent free on my own in a place I love to be in. The day after, I hit the gym and worked on every attribute that I hated about myself and made them beautiful.
The day after I killed my self I had wished to enjoy the things I could never again do.
The day after I killed my self I had wished to live just one day, have one day back.
