Late night thoughts

I am laying in my bed thinking of my day
I actually liked it
But yet i fell depressed
I was happy with my friends but now i'm alone
I am freezing but my body is burning when i touch it
Thinking of how perfect everyone's life is
How everyone has a loved one
I don't
How everyone is happy
I am not
How everyone has a great mental health
I don't
How everyone seems so happy
I do too but do i feel happy?
I wanted love
Now that i have it I feel lonely
I wanted a better friendship
Now that i have it I lost another
Is that life
Expectation versus reality
It hurts
Burns painful through your skin
Leaves an open wound which takes an eternity to heal
And which leaves a silbery shining scar behind
Beautiful for others
But painful in your eyes