𝐘𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐑'𝐒 𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 {𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐕𝐎𝐍}

15

"She killed my fucking baby man , I loved that girl so much I don't understand why I gave that girl whatever man" Yasir said as he popped another Percocet he had been drinking , smoking and popping pills all day to numb the pain of thinking she aborted his child

"So what you gon do ? You forgot how bad you did this girl ? She even forgave you put her pride to the side and still gave you another chance with Xzmora" Reese replied smoking the blunt

"Who side you on bitch ?" Yasir asked cocking his head to the side

"Seriously you done pulled a gun out on this girl how many times ?" Reese replied

"shut up bitch" Yasir mumbled

Over the last week he had fell into  a deep depression he hated being a away from them but it was untimely his fault for reacting the way he did . Having a conversation about it and he could've gotten the full truth he hadn't eaten in  days due to the fact he had no energy  he cried damn near everyday and dropped 10 pounds
he felt so bad for hurting them both. He didn't know how he could even apologize after breaking his promise of never hurting them again and him putting his hands on Bleu and Xzmora made it even harder

He slept in the room with dark curtains and barely left the room he had cut his phone off so he wouldn't be bothered . Durk had called him over a hundred times but Yasir wouldn't answer he was embarrassed by his actions and wished he could've handled it better growing up in a abusive household was the last  thing he wanted his girlfriends to go through. Yasir wasn't the most religious person but he prayed and prayed for God to bring him back to his wives to make things right with them even if it meant them just to be friends . He was going through the worst heart break since being abandoned as a child and being separated by the system , nothing made Yasir cry except this he wanted to be a better person and a better father than he had . He really couldn't imagine life without them Bleu had introduced him to the right people to became stable to take care of himself and Xzmora helped him with his anger and emotions , Bleu listened to him vent at night about his childhood as his bestfriend while Xzmora was his lover both girls played an important role of him being the man he was today

Yasir got up from his bed dragging himself to the living room and grabbing a piece of paper and a red ink pen writing into the journal that Xzmora gave him to write down his thoughts it was basically a diary but Yasir's masculine energy wouldn't allow him to call it that

Dear Bleu and Xzmora :
I loved you two so much . Y'all have showed me the meaning of life I could've been broke and down bad but B you picked me up i regret the day that i hurt both of you i hate myself everyday for traumatizing you with my anger my intentions were never to hurt neither of you . Mora you showed me how to love and you taught me how to be a man I'm so sorry I hurt you shorty I cannot believe i even let myself get so upset with you guys . B I know you don't wanna listen to me apologize but I'm mad as hell at you for killing our baby man I would've given my seed the world you know I loved you so why would you hurt me? But it's not about me I violated you and put my hands on you when I promised I would never do it again. I'm not begging for forgiveness but i hate that I hurt you guys so much . I wish I wouldn't have walked into y'all lives y'all would be better off without me I have a lot of growing to do but a life without y'all isn't a life it's a hell on Earth. Over the last couple of days I've been thinking and praying but nothing is helping I wanna hear you laugh one more time Mora I want to make you mad and buy you a new purse B . Y'all have made me have a purpose to live but without y'all there is no reason to live on this earth anymore I hate to say good bye like this but I hate myself for doing y'all how I did y'all - sincerely , Yasir Bennett

Yasir licked the envelope putting the letter inside of it and placed it outside of the door in the small mailbox attached to the wall walking back inside going into the bathroom sitting on the floor back against the tub it felt like he was eleven years old again waiting to be punished by his grandfather he held the razor in his hand slitting his wrist letting the blood trickle down his arm he cried and cried as he became weaker by cutting his artery Yasir's depression got the best of him and his demons won this battle he laid on the floor dead bleeding out . He knew he wasn't going to heaven he had caused to much hurt and for him to hurt the two women he loved the most in the world made him want to die he prepared for this moment for years but didn't know that he would be the one to take his life . Before meeting Bleu and Xzmora he was already going through mental battles and this was his last straw , Yasir would never get to meet his child because he took his own life