Why? (Kris Guštin/Bojan Cvjetićanin/Käärijä)

Jealousy. Anger. Possessiveness. That's how you describe Kris Guštin in the shortest way possible even though he wasn't like that in the first place. Back then, before he broke up with his girlfriend, he was a supportive friend that everyone know they can rely on, but ever since he broke up, he changed a lot, he becomes easily jealous and possessive, especially with Bojan. It grows to be more obvious and obnoxious when the Eurovision season comes. Bojan and Käärijä get to know each other, getting closer and eventually becoming a thing. Kris' tone is always different when he talks with Käärijä; he grows to be annoying with the Finnish rapper, but not with the other. Käärijä, on the other hand, doesn't understand much about it since his English level isn't as good which is somewhat a curse and a blessing.

That one day, Käärijä and his brother, Mikke just came back from the boulangerie with bags of delicious pastries for all Joker Out members; Kris rudely grabs the bag off of Käärijä's hand which everyone saw and Jure nudges him for walking away without saying thanks and Käärijä laughs it off, saying that Kris is already hungry. That toxic behaviour becomes the talk of the other members until Bojan gets involved in it. Kris refuses to listen to Bojan or anyone else, for that matter. After Eurovision is done and everyone went home to their own countries, Kris was able to sigh in relief, hoping it was just one of that flings, but he was downright wrong, Käärijä and Bojan made it official when Bojan made a guest appearance at the Tavastia gig. That moment had pumped Kris' blood to its limit.

"Morning, guys."
"Yo."

"Where's Bojan and Nace?" Everyone is at Kris' apartment today since Joker Out and Käärijä will perform today. Right now, only he, Jan, and Jure are in the house.

"Bojan is at his place and Nace went to the barbershop." Said Jure handling the plate full of breakfast.

"Why?" Jure shrugs, not understanding the question. Nace comes while they're in the middle of eating and he joins straight away. Kris had never felt jealous about Jure and Nace together, he sees them as they were meant to be, somehow, but, with Bojan, he feels extremely jealous. They all prepare themselves and are ready to leave. Bojan was actually picking up Käärijä at the airport before going straight to the venue. Everyone does the rehearsal until lunchtime.

"Käärijä, don't you think you eat too much? You'll get bloated that way." Käärijä puts back the serving spoon and steps aside from the buffet table; the catered food is enough to feed the whole band, the venue's team, cameramen, and even the security. Bojan huft and give his boyfriend the spoon again.

"Eat as much as you want, babe. Don't you like the stew?"
"No. I'm not very hungry now, Bojan."

"What the fuck, Kris?" Bojan muttered to Kris for not letting Käärijä eat and Bojan just take a bowl of the stew for him. Kris also eats by himself and refuses to join the others.

"Kris, you want play Uno?" Asked Käärijä with a big smile and Kris slaps the rapper's hand.

"I'm sleepy. Leave me alone." Jan is eyeing him from afar and approaches him.

"No need to be so rude, dude. He was being nice."
"Geez, leave me alone, Jan."

"Suit yourself." The show was a success, but Kris was eyeing Bojan all the time until the show is done. They all go back to Kris' place for dinner, and Kris is deliberately being rude to Käärijä despite him being nice. This time, Bojan won't stay quiet anymore, he finds Kris smoking on the balcony after dinner, while Käärijä has gone to bed already; he looked exhausted anyway.

"Kris. We need to talk."
"About...?"

"Stop playing innocent. What the hell was that? Käärijä was being nice to you and you chose to be a total asshole to him?" Ignoring the singer, Kris takes a big puff of his cigarette and Bojan is extremely pissed, he snatched the cigarette off of his hand.

"Are you gonna be like this forever?"
"I hate Käärijä, okay?"
"Why? He's like the nicest person on earth. He's my boyfriend and if you have a problem with him, I will step in. Right fucking now."

"Yeah, that's the problem, Bojan. He is your boyfriend." Kris lightly pushes Bojan away and he's perplexed.

"The fuck that's supposed to mean?"
"He's not worth your time. Who was he anyway? You both just met and all of a sudden, you both are a thing? I've known you longer, Bojan."
"I don't get your point."

"Don't you see that I liked you and you keep ignoring me?! And now you're with someone you just know? That's a total dick move, dude." Grunted. Kris refuses to look at Bojan and Bojan couldn't believe what he just heard.

"You weren't like this when you and Lina were still together. The fuck happened to you?! If you have a problem with me and Käärijä, why don't you have a problem with Jure and Nace as well?"
"Don't swerve the topic, Bojan."
"Am not. Nace and Jure are also a couple, but you don't have a problem with it? Talking about the double standard."
"Of course, I'm not jealous. They're different."

"Guštin, look me in the eyes and tell me how is that different!" Raising his voice, the singer grabs the guitarist by the shoulder and stares into his eyes. Bojan was not expecting to be kissed by Kris, nor he was ready. The only sensible reaction for Bojan is to instantly slap Kris on the cheek.

"What the actual fuck, Kris?!"
"I love you, Bojan. Can't you see that?! I've loved you since we were in school grade."
"I've moved on, Kris. Let's face it."
"Moved on? We never dated and what do you mean by that?"

"You already dated Lina back then and my chance of being with you has reduced to negative. I tried to move on for years and now I found Jere. I love him and leave him alone!" Gasped. It doesn't seem like Kris would wanna take that answer.

"Why didn't you say it back then? I could've just broken up with her right away."
"How stupid do you think I am, Kris?!"

"Face it, I'm with Käärijä now and I won't break up with him. I will even take it to the next step when we're ready and you better not intervene!" Tapping the guitarist's chest angrily, Kris grabs Bojan by the shoulder; he has mixed emotions inside him.

"Why, Bojan, why?" Tears slowly come down from his eyes and Bojan holds his arms.

"It's too late, Kris. We were never meant to be. Let's face it."
"But you can't."
"Yes, I can. I've found someone I truly love and I hope you understand that."

"K-Kris..." Kris grabs Bojan's hand tightly, preventing him to walk away. Kris hugs Bojan tightly as he cries on his shoulder.

"I don't wanna lose you, Bojan."

"Kris, you won't lose me. We're still in the band together. We're still good friends too." Bojan hugs the taller guy back and can feel the hug slowly constricting.

"Listen, Kris. We can still be good friends even when we're not in a relationship. This is the reality, okay?" Stroking the guitarist back, the singer sighs, running out of words.

"We can still be friends, but you better apologize to Käärijä tomorrow morning or I won't talk to you, ever again."

"B-Bojan... I'm sorry..." Kris is on Bojan's knees, crying and hugging his legs.

"I'm not mad, Kris. I'm disappointed."

"Good night, Kris." Bojan kneels and kiss Kris' forehead before leaving him alone on the balcony.

"Why, Bojan, why?" Kris, still on his knees and crying was left alone, feeling distraught.