forgotten ll han jisung!ot7

v2

(A/N this is taking place after the interview, while they're changing. this is also a very angsty version with a BAD ending. i'll make a fluffier one after this! this is also very short because i didn't want to put you guys through too much pain, as well as me sucking at making angst.)

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"we forgot his birthday."

silence filled the room when they came to the conclusion until one of them spoke up.

"it's his fault that he didn't mention it."

"plus, it's just one birthday!"

"it's a good thing he wasn't being a brat during lixie and minnie's parties."

"yeah, it's whatever."

"doesn't affect me."

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"hey, why did you flinch when channie hyung touched you, you little brat." jisung's head was pushed down, but he accepted it. "we would've been in trouble if it weren't for that bad excuse. don't be disrespectful to the members."

jisung nodded and kept his head down as the other members left the room.

"there's a reason he's the least favorite."

"tch, such a brat."

"can't even stand up for himself."

"no backbone."

"such a try-hard."

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it's fine, i'm fine.

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from then on, it only got worse.

the members got even more rude to him, often put much of the heavy work on him and never told him when meals were ready.

jisung put up with it.

until he didn't.

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"sir..." jisung said on call with one of his managers. "i want to put in my letter of resignation. for stray kids, not the company."

"jisung, are you sure?" his manager said on the other side. "are they giving you a hard time because i'll discipline them! the little-"

"it's fine hyung." jisung sighed as he started packing his bags. "it'll only make it worse. so, can you please contact pd-nim so we can set up a meeting. thank you a lot, for everything."

jisung hung up and looked around his close to empty room.

he didn't know that one of his members was eavesdropping.

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days later, when hyunjin went into jisung's room to wake him up, he found it empty.

empty of posters, possessions, clothes.

empty of jisung.

all that remained was a note on the end of the bed, and seven small boxes.

"jisung?" hyunjin called as he walked around the dorm. he even called jisung, only for him not to pick up.

"hyun, what happened?" chan said when he saw hyunjin pacing around the dorm.

"jisung isn't here!" hyunjin cried. "all that's in his room is a piece of paper and seven boxes!"

"get the rest of the members and we'll see what we can do, alright?" chan told him as he went to jisung's former room.

hyunjin was right, jisung wasn't in there and neither were any of his possessions.

he picked up the note on the bed.

former members,
i'm leaving.
i'm finally leaving because all of you actually suck. i'm done doing all the heavy work and being mistreated.
you called me a faggot when i trusted you with my secret, you forgot my birthday two years in a row and i'm severely underweight because of you guys not informing me of meals and overworking me.
i really wish i could say "fuck you" but i can't because even through all the shit you put me through, you were what kept me alive in my hardest days.
so i don't hate you, i love you because my mind makes up fucking excuses because of former days.
what did i do wrong? we were all fine and happy but then it just switched. i really tried my hardest, i did. but maybe my hardest isn't good enough for you.
i'm leaving stray kids, but not the company because of the staff. the staff that kept me alive for the past year or so.
i'm debuting as a soloist, but don't talk to me. unless you want to tell me what i did wrong, don't talk to me.
hell, you messed me up so much that i'm not even debuting under j.one i'm just going by jisung. because you ruined all of my other names.
thank you chan, you were the most tolerable out of all of them, feeding me when no one else would and such. but you never stopped them, that's the one thing that you didn't do.
minho, you were one of the first i would tell about my sexuality, and then you shame me. did you forget about trying to get into a relationship with me?
changbin, you didn't do anything. you didn't hurt nor help me. so you're evil, cause there are two types of evil people. people who do evil stuff and people who don't do anything to stop it.
hyunjin, you brat.
felix, you take our title as your own, we'll never be sunshine twins again.
seungmin, you laugh in other's faces, i sincerely wish someone will laugh in yours when you fall.
jeongin, i blame your hyungs for raising you as such a horrible person.
don't interact with me,
han

 p.s. those are your birthday gifts, don't open them early.

 "f-fuck" chan sobbed as he read the note. "fuck!"

 the other members entered as he started pulling his hair. one of the members went up to stop him, comfort him but he pushed whoever it was away.

 "it's all our faults!" chan yelled. "it's all our fault!"

 "what? hyung what happened?"

 "jisung fucking left us."

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(well im done writing thattttt,,, sorryyyyyy)

word count: 905

i'll make a super fluffy v3 dwww

and then a traumatizing v4