When Penelope got back with our breakfast we talked about everything. I even brought up the wedding dress. We laughed and we cried. But in my mind I just hoped she won't commit suicide.
"Baby?" I said
"Yes?" Penelope answered
"I want you to go home tonight okay? Get some sleep" I told her.
"That's not going to happen, my place is being here with you." She argued
"Please do it for me" I begged.
She took a long moment to think about it and sighed "Fine I will"
I smiled said thank you and kissed her hand. She gave me a nod.
The thing is the doctors don't think I'll make it by tomorrow morning, and I don't want Penelope to wake up to nurses and doctors trying to resuscitate me back to life.
That night Penelope gave me a kiss and a goodbye, then she left. That's the thing me and Penelope never said I love you. So it would be weird if we started it. Later on I drifted to sleep.
In the middle of the night doctor Morgan woke me up and sadness on his face. And hands me a letter
Dear, Jax
Your probably reading this thinking why? Why did you do this? Well I did it because I can't stand the thought of you gone. I lost everyone I have ever loved, I couldn't loose you too. And I know our beliefs are different so I'll be in hell and I'll never see your face again. But I wasn't in pain. I promise. I know that your crying right now and saying that you shouldn't have told me go home. I would have done it after your passing. I'm sorry Jax. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough. Maybe in our next life, it will be different, we would meet sooner. I'll be waiting till then. I love you. I've always loved you.
Love,
Penelope
I put the letter down crying. I didn't know what to do. She was the love of my life. How could she do this. I cried myself to sleep. I woke up the next morning, not having the motivation to speak. I just wanted to die right then and there. I was supposed to go first not her. I cried and I cried till my heart couldn't take it anymore. I fell asleep...not waking up every again.
