Dear Diary,
Hello again Kage here I'm in the mood to write something here whenever I feel like it.
To be honest with you I'm having a mixed feeling right now as I'm now facing what's this so-called 'slap of reality.
Say diary for what reason I exist , even my creator have kept my characteristics a secret . It's as if they are hiding something from me as the new Dominant Character in my master behavioral system.
I did everything what I could do as much as it is needed and somehow ended up in a always sad part. Is this how fate will pull a trick on me , this is so really unfair.
The creator itself tries to deny the fact they are emotional unstable and rely on crying numerous times
"Why am I even alive , what is even the reason I've been given second chance in life , when will be my turn to die ,GOD!!?"
Is what creator said during their time coping mechanism. We each of our creation can't do anything much on them since in this virtual reality we don't exist and this world they created are all in their head.
"I wanna die, I wanna die"
Master kept saying that as if they struggling on a small human problem but for them it's not that.
I saw them trying to self harm themselves but they survive everytime they attempt.
Was it always like ? , My curiosity to know my master behavior peeks my interest and wanted to know what's behind these fake happiness they built for us .
Why they created a system were each character are ruled on each realm part of there mind and protect them from the cruel doubt.
Elize told me before she graduated as the intelligence head they reply that ,
"Master has always doubt themselves ever since realizing the mistakes they've done and now regretting it....if you spot a weird behavior , I pray you stop them for ending themselves"
(Back to the present)
I realize this type of case is inevitable and I'm drained of preventing my master from losing that hope on their mind...yet all I see now is a shattered core stabbed by the blades of misery.
"It may sound cringe but this is how they see it"
I KageNeko must once again pretend as that character once again to please my master even tho if I make a fake mask concealed my real emotion
"Hoping that someday those little words may have come"
