Falling for a player

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                   Kate’s POV

 “You’ll pick me up tomorrow right? Mmkay, I will be waiting at the door by 7:30”,

    I have been worried sick about Gaea and had no idea where she went after she stormed angrily out of the house. I peep through the window and see her enter a car, that causes me to start panicking but I see the driver and say a silent thanks to God that is someone she can talk to and express all anger she has kept bottled up.

  “Hey baby”, I say trying to get a response from her but as soon as she hears my voice, her faces turns to a frown and my countenance also drops as well. She ignores me and walks over to the kitchen picking up a bottle of water and an apple before climbing up to the stairs to her room.

  “I am really sorry Gaea”. Tears begins to trickle down my cheeks as my voice faints into whispers. Davies my boyfriend comes over and engulfs me in a hug, raking his fingers through my hair and massaging my scalp. “It’s okay babe, I don’t think it’s healthy for you to cry this much, especially not for someone who doesn’t know the worth.”  I pulled myself from his body and pushed him away. We hear the door of Gaea’s room slammed closed really loudly and I face Davies and begin to yell at him;

 “You should be looking for ways to make her like you and here you are saying all this when you know she is just healing and needs all the love, attention, care and support she can get right now”.

 “But it has been 4 years already Kate, she needs to move on and not hold on to all this hurt for the rest of her life. I under…”

 “No, no you don’t understand, don’t try to say you understand because you don’t know what it means to lose a parent at age 13, you have no idea what it’s like to keep seeing in the garage the same car that held your father’s dead body”, I half yell at him with my fingers poking into his chest and tears freely flowing down my cheeks as I reminisce and feel drawn back to that day.

~4 years ago~

    It was a Saturday evening and we were driving on the streets of LA heading to our usual Spanish restaurant ‘la paella’, in West LA, from South LA, I was seated at the passenger seat besides my husband, Jasper Pandora, with Gaea strapped firmly to her seat with her seat belt when suddenly we were hit by this other car coming from the opposite direction whose brakes had failed.

 We tried so hard to swerve the car to the opposite direction but we were out of time and the impact was so hard on the car and most on Jasper’s side of the car that he died instantly. The car kept on spinning until it hit a tree and came to a stop.

 Gaea had already fainted from the impact and the major panic attack that she was having and I thought she had also died.

 I on the other hand was wide awake but was so crushed by the thought of losing both my husband and daughter that nothing else seemed to make sense. I sat there motionless, frozen in time and it was as if the world had paused and my life, ended. The noise of people calling out our names was drowned by my deafening scream as I struggle to get up. I walk up to my Gaea’s limp body and shake her but she doesn’t wake up I scream, “water”, loudly to no one in particular and I focus only on my daughter as I hear people scatter all about in search of water. 

I collect the water through the now shattered window and open it sprinkling little amount of it on Gaea’s face. I release a sigh of relief as she opens her mouth mumbling words that I could not quite make out; she opens her eye and look at the scene before us and starts having another panic attack. Just in time, the small group of people who have gathered managed to open the door and rush Gaea to the back of the ambulance that someone had called. I manage to squeeze myself out through the car door and I fall to the ground and begin to sob seeing Jasper’s body lying on the ground with blood gushing out his head; “No! No Jasper, you cannot do this to me, you can’t leave Gaea and me in this turbulent world alone. This isn’t what you promised babe, you didn’t tell me you were going to leave so soon, I hate you so much for breaking your promise, I hate you so much Jasper, I hate you”. I say now sitting directly by him and hitting his lifeless body hoping he’d at least shake but nothing happened. I hear little sobs next to me and I see Gaea holding unto her dads shirt so tightly and sobbing; “Open your eyes daddy, can you please say something to me? Why are you not talking to me? Did I do something bad? I’m sorry, okay, I promise I’ll be a good girl from now just talk to me please. Please daddy open your eyes and say something”. I was even more broken by the site before me and I could no longer hold back my tears, I held Gaea tightly to my chest and whispered to her, “Daddy’s gone baby, he is gone but I promise I’ll be here for you always”, we both cried and yelled but nothing changed.