Born Broken

Alone

Why am i so alone
I sit and wonder why
But then i look back at what ive done with my life

Ive always been a jerk
To stranger and family
The thing i do best
Is push away those close to me

I always self implode
And if i dont i explode
Most the time i rage
Cause i wont let others know my true pain

I dont let people in
Doing so is a joke
Whenever i let them in
My life goes up in smoke

People dont understand me
Dont understand my pain inside
But i dont either
Sometimes i struggle to cry

I dont like expressing my emotions
They always come out wrong
Any time i try to use my words
I guess they come out too strong

But at least thats what i assume
But what am i to do
When even i say im the problem
Not you

I look back at my life
And i know exactly why im lonely
Cause in reality im just a big phony

I teach people one thing
Then do another
I hurt everyone i touch
My father, sister, brothers and mother

I look at my beautiful nieces
To them i have so much i want to say
So they can live a better life
And not end up this way

Cause my life is not a happy one
Though for every reason it should
If i could go back and change just one thing
I know the one thing i would

Id go back to when i was just a small boy
Teach him how to properly express himself
Tell him theres better ways and how to be happy

He needs to learn to love himself
And show more love to others
Learn how to be social
And not to be too fast to judge

I find myself just rambling
Thinking this will make a difference
I know it won't
Cause not even i will listen

(Trigger Alert)

I spend a lot of time in a treestand
Making whitetails die
But maybe it's my turn
When is it my time