My Fate

6.July.2023 and 7.July.2023

Today I woke up at 4:00am,after having a nightmare,I just sat on my bed for about 40 mins,and it took me 40 mins to come back to the reality,
when I was a little bit relaxed,I got up from bed,got freshed and after that I did some school work for about an hour and after that I got ready for school,I finished my morning chai,while my mom was making my braids,after that I did a quick check of my bag and left home with my mother at around 6:40am and then I was on time at the bus stop and after around 4 to 5 mins,my school bus arrived.Then I reached the school.

First period (Maths)

Second period (Social science)
*In this period,I got into an argument with one of my friend, because of some copy work,she didn't talk to me for one period,and then I also start ignoring her,and don't know why,my another friend is also not talking to me*

Third period (Sports)

Fourth period (English)

In recess,
I didn't ate my lunch, because I have to do some pending work.

Fifth period (Science),
In this period,we have to give a class presentation and after some students mam called me,I was a little nervous even though it was a class presentation,and when I get nervous I either laugh like maniac or smile widely even if my face muscles starts hurting, somehow I managed to give the presentation until the end,after that mam said that I should be serious while giving presentation if I will laugh then how will others be serious, from her prospective she is right,but there is nothing I can do with this nervousness.

Sixth bell(Computer)

Seventh bell(Hindi)

Eight bell(Sanskrit)
Don't know why,but the thought that I am not even able to speak some sentences in front of 26 people,how will I keep my point in a conversation with many more people,I felt like crying but I controlled myself,in this bell mam takes an oral test,she called us in the front,we have to say three *shloka* along with it's meaning,and guess what,this time,I didn't feel that much nervousness,that means if I will work on this thing,than I will surely improve one day.

After dispersal,
In bus,I ate my lunch because at this time I was so hungry.

I came back to home,
My Mamu and mamani were at my house,and after something like 10 minutes,they went, after that I ate a packet of takatak, which they bought and after that I skipped my lunch,but after some time times I was feeling hungry again,so I ate my favourite fruit,the king of fruits, MANGO🥭,I did some Home work,read some stories on Wattpad,then evening chai,then I did some work and after that I ate dinner,and then I slept.
Hope tomorrow will be better!!

NEXT DAY

Today I woke up,got ready, hoping everything will be fine in school,after assembly,I came and sat on my seat,I realised,my some so-called friends are ignoring me,and because of this freaking sitting plan,I have to seat one of them,but luckily, Bhumi,my best friend,is not one of them and also she is sitting behind me,whole day went like this,I have never been this much silent in my whole life.
I don't know how,I controlled my emotions all day,I cannot ignore anyone,whom I trust whole heartedly,
What others think that I don't care, but deep inside it hurts.

Maybe I deserve all of these ignorance and hate.

BYE EVERYONE, DON'T FORGET TO VOTE!!

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