I'm pretty much the average type, like you.
I have my flaws and my ups and downs and those woo moments, but then I have those 'I wish I was never born in the first place.' moments. But that's what makes me me.
Oh, and me?
Like I said, I'm just the average type, like you.
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Molly, that's my name. I know, it's childish as you grow, especially because it sounds like a name of a doll a four-year old would endlessly play with. But I've learned to like it, I mean, it's easy to remember, right? Isn't that really all there is?
I'm kind of an upper and downer, if those are even words. I've always been this girl that when you randomly call on she's not gonna answer. Not because she's shy, or, at least, not all the time, or not because she's on mute, or not because she just doesn't want to answer, well, fully. It's because that girl is not the smartest, not that Albert Einstein wannabe. She has to learn a bit more, because she learns slowly. She might've not been paying attention, perhaps. You're not a robot, it's OKAY to goof off, and it's okay to daydream. Well, anyways, that girl won't answer because she simply does not know the answer.
And I tell myself that that's OKAY, and that it's normal to not know the answer.
I'm kind of a reluctant little fellow. I'm not daring, but I do want to learn new things and have new experiences. But I'm just scared, and hesitant, and I always do a little spinoff of the positive things that could happen. Thus leading to this huge, bowl full-of-blob including these negative thoughts and positive thoughts. But that's honestly MORE THAN okay. We're humans, and we only have one shot at life. We need to experience new things, so why not emotions?
Happy, sad, excited, hesitant, jealous, sorry, guilty, nervous, tired, fear, joy, surprise, so on.
I'm that girl who isn't afraid to go online and be that locked up girl on the outside. But I tell myself that it's OKAY to admit some stuff you don't want to admit and or do in the real world. Humans don't share everything, well, unless you're an attention-seeking facebook or twitter user.
I'm a girl with some odd interests, and some cool ones, some that most people like, and some that anyone rarely likes. But then I remind myself that I'm the one in me, and no one else is controlling me. I control myself. I like to do what I'm interested in, and what I'm good at, or what I want to do. I know that I don't have to change my whole self just because someone doesn't like what I do, or what my interests are, or what I do as a habit or living. As long as I'm comfortable, and fine, and so forth with these activities, I don't see any real problem around here. You just got to be you, only you, take care of that you, grasp onto it tightly, and never let it go for someone else.
I know, that sounds a bit selfish, but trust me, when you do it it's actually heroic to yourself, even others.
You're YOU.
Treasure that, like, a lot.
Don't degrade yourself or be scared to admit some stuff if you're afraid that others would judge you. If they do, hell with them. It's YOUR life. YOUR decisions. YOUR possibilities. What YOU want to do. What YOUR choices are. And one day you're gonna realize that what you chose, to be yourself, was taking the road less traveled, as that saying goes.
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A message, from me, to you.
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Author's note:
I'm gonna delete a lot of those wips and stuff, because I really think I've improved as a writer. Not like, professional or anything, but I've learned how to not have run-on sentences and describe things not in lists but in other formats. And, I appreciate all the support you guys have given me with all those comments on Smile, Strong, and so on. I think a lot of people are fond to those inspirational messages so I'm working on some more. Some may repeat themselves and I know I do that a lot sometimes, but yeah.
I just want everyone to know that they're all spectacular, extraordinary. Why? Because they have the guts to be THEMSELVES.
**Thank you.**
