~tntduo oneshots~

blueberry pancakes

based off the song by the feelrs, 10/10 fav song fr. also its angst >:)) he's talking abt quackity- if it wasnt obvious lol-

wilburs pov:

he keeps texting me about everything he's been up to, i dont have the heart to tell him so stop, i dont wanna hear about it, but i do anyway.i just wanted to get into his pants, i look back to the picture he sent me a couple hours ago, he was wearing shorts and i could see that tattoo on his thigh. we had gotten matching ones last year, why? i have no clue but we did. god, why did he have to be so pretty? i look over towards the window, the sun was rising. shit, how long have i been zoned out? ugh, i hate him so much.

i got up out of bed and walk out of my room, i notice him still on my couch, asleep. i thought he'd leave by now, why'd he stay? nevermind, i start to grab a pan and the pancake mix. i start to mix it in a mixer bowl and add blueberrys. its a fun little touch i like to add, once that parts finished, i start to butter the pan and make pancakes. why do i feel so, afraid. was it him? was it me? i have no clue at this point.

i start putting the finished pancakes on a plate and finish up the last couple. "are you making pancakes?" i hear a sleepy voice from behind me, making me jump.

i turn around to see him, his hair is a little messy and he looks both tired and happy. "uhm, yeah. would you like one?" i manage to stutter out. he has a look in his eye that makes me even more nervous.

"yeah! of course!" he sits down at the island and i throw two on his plate.

i grab syrup and forks, then sit down by him. he eats them almost immediately, im sitting there staring, why did have to be so god damn pretty? fuck, am i catching feelings for him!? i zone back in and finish my second pancake, he's finished his pancakes already and washing off his plate, putting it in the sink. "well i should probably head out, ill see you later," he gave me a genuine smile and waved as he exited my apartment. i mentally face palm, why am i so awkward, jeez.

/hours later/

i lay starfished in my bed, staring at the ceiling. i think im catching feelings, he's so easy to fall for, but why? he stole my heart so easily, i wish i could run away from it all, i mess everything little thing up. i dont and never want to fall for him, cause i just know ill mess it all up, i always do, no matter what, no questions asked.

i know what he needs, he's been through a lot recently and its been painful to watch. the reason he left this morning was for a date with some random guy named nick, what a stupid name, i hate it, i hate that nick guy, whoever he is. that should be me, not him, i should be the one on a date with him. he's the missing piece of my puzzle, its probably time i tell him.

ive felt like this for years, getting jealous of his partners, then trying to sabotage their relationship. i thought this was just because im his best friend and didnt want his attention taken away from me, but ive just now realized that im inlove, no, obsessed with him. it feels so dumb, but so reasonable. ugh, why can't i be normal? why cant i be his? why hasn't he noticed?

its all so stupid, i soon feel my eyes get wet out of frustration, i hate it! i hate it all! i begin to cry silently, why me? for the love of god, why me!

A/N bit :]

sorry its short lol but i thought this was a nice song to base a chapter off, i also wrote this last night in my notes app so sorry if it sucks tbh, i didnt proof read it- hope u enjoyed it :') btw thx for 1.71k reads it means a lot <3