LIFE BY CC

deep breath

i wake to see nothing but my dark room thinking about life is it really worth to go on with life with life so meaningless all i can do is close my eyes prying that this feeling will go away eventually i fall asleep i wake up in the morning with a feeling of life thinking i can do it for myself and my partner so i take my hand and wipe the stuff off my eyes i get to work i get up and get ready getting ready always makes me feel good but i still have this heavy feeling of hopeless what to do i go brush my teeth and wash my face but even doing those things is hard when you feel like life isn't worth it i want to go lay back down so bad but i don't i go make breakfast for myself but even eating is hard but i do pushing through is hard i'm always in my head always feeling like you letting someone down you love is like the worst and having a mental illness is like one minute you think your good but then you wanna end it and most people don't understand how you feel because they don't have and for me i can't articulated how i feel so when they ask you you say you don't know the feeling of i don't know is the worst you feel like know matter how much you try you can't get it out and actually being honest with someone about how you feel is hard especially when you love the person and all you want to do is tell but you can't it doesn't come out and when it does it's not right life is complicated i don't know how i some people actually get through it......