Last Chance (Boyxboy)

Chapter-8

~<Alex's POV>~

Mind constantly racing. Don't know how I got here. Don't know how to leave. I feel very welcomed I won't take it for granted though, I can't mess up this time. As soon as my hand heals I'll get a job so I can actually pay rent.

Job how is a high school drop out like you ever going to get a job, get over yourself.

Who am I kidding, starring blankly at the ceiling. I should have been smarter then this, I had the potential to finish high school, I just.. I don't know.

You do know, you where being a coward. You ran, now you'll pay the price. So will he.

Now I wish more than ever that I took Tyler up on his offer to share his bed. I can't stand how this silence forces me to be left with the worst part of my mind.

My back arches as I sit up on the small love seat. Realistically I won't be able to get a job. No one wants to hire a high school drop out, not even god damn McDonald's will hire me will they? God, why couldn't I have been stronger... I could have finished high school.

I stumble my way through the dark hallway into the bathroom. I wince a little when  the bright light illuminates the room. I'm a mess, dirty hair, yellow teeth, eyes blood shot from lack of sleep. It's been about a week, a week with no sleep. A week of change, for better or for worse I'm still not sure.

It seems as if every time I find someone who cares, something happens. I should try harder, I can't loose Tyler. Not when I just started to get to know him.. but maybe the sooner I end our friendship the less it will hurt.

"What are you doing up so late?" I jump at Tylers sudden appearance. 

"Can't sleep." I mumble settling myself on top of the counter.

"The offer for sharing a bed is still on the table if you'd like." 

"If it's fine with you I think it would help." 

Without a direct answer he walks out of the bathroom towards his room. Taking it as a hint I trail behind into the small room. The only thing different I can spot is the small yellow lights on the headboard, illuminating the small bed. It's something simple but very pretty in the night.

Normally I would be more reluctant to just climb into a strangers bed but at this point I'm too tired to care. I grumble at Tyler when he takes most of the blankets. Tyler seems not to notice as he started snoring almost instantly. 

I guess this is a little bit better, the lights are really calming I can see why he likes them. I don't know why I didn't notice them the first time I was in here. To be fair I was a little distracted.... 

"Hey Alex" Tyler says "What actually happened to your hand?"

I don't say a thing in hopes that he'll assume that I have fallen asleep. "I know you're awake." Fucking mind reader. 

"Well" I start "I kind of accidentally got it caught in a rose bush..." 

"You really think I believe that?" He huffs shifting so we are face to face. His eyes are sincere and his face is stiff and serious. If I tell him then he won't really understand right? I mean at this point there is no real escape from this question. If I don't answer now it will eventually come up again. 

"Right before I found Bert I had found a piece of broken glass..." I explained "I had gotten so mad.. mad at my mom.. mad at the world... just mad without realizing it I had been clutching the glass in my hand and I had really cut it up"

"So.... it was an accident?" 

"Yes."

"Then why would you be muttering 'I shouldn't have done it' over and over?" He questioned pushing for an answer "If it was an accident then why where you repeating that"

"I guess it wasn't really an accident per say... I didn't know what I was doing though I have never done anything like that before" I say half lying. He seems to buy it I don't feel bad for admitting that but there was no way I would tell him about my legs. 

I close my eyes waiting for a reply but none came. Instead Tyler surprisingly pulled me into his arms. As always he smells like strawberry a scent that keeps me calm and makes me feel safe. 

"Don't you ever do anything like that again." He says sternly. Ending the conversation and the night with that comment. 

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A/N 

sooooo... I almost gave up on this to be honest .P.

but I am going to try and continue it I would be really glad if it was to work out. I'm tired of just giving up on stories... but ya know no promises 

<3 bai~