puro problema kapag umiinom ehno0
U <u143xgmail.com>
To: you1234xgmai.com
i'm a bit sober rngf, i want t vent here....
anways, i'm glad that i don't feel very presssured anymore but the expectations is still there yet i am chill about it. it really made my mental health a bit better. i feel so happy these days, idk its weird kasi yung last email ko was about me wanting to cry but look at me now, i feel so happy and positive these days, i'm so proud of myself. although i fear being happy all the time because i know that sooner or later i will cry till i sleep again because of pressure or words i receive from someone.
it hurts because i always thought that everytime i feel happy or chill in a day i would always say that i am healed from the pain but the truth is i'm not healed yet. it gets worser and worser because of bottling up my pains until i get enough of it. it really hurts because i always bottle up my emotions. i don't like opening up to someone yet i am open to someone opening up to me.
it really hurts because the people i am close with thought i'm okay because i laugh, joke and smile alot but i'm not that person guys.
if you guys only knew how much i suffered.
if only you guys knew how much tears i cried.
if only you guys knew how much i was hurt.
if only you guys knew how much insecure i was even though i was confident in socmed, i'm not that person.
if only you guys knew how much mask i had just to cover my ugly personality.
if only you guys knew how many times i tried to stop myself from opening up to you because i don't want you guys to leave me.
i love you guys... a lot because you saved me from my lonely shell but i hope you guys paid attention to me just a little because my shell is beginning to crack again. i'm not hoping you guys to notice because you all are busy but i'm glad you guys were my saviour in my darkest nights. you guys were my home but i know we're not blood related but i feel so close to you guys, i'm thankful because i met you all.
i'm a bit dramatic today : 0 but haha just wanted to vent in my email idk what else to do, i'm starting to get sad again.
FUCK ALCOHOL. I WON;T DRINK AGAIN IM CRYING FUCK
BINABASA MO ANG
solace between U and I
RandomU liked journaling. She sends e-mail on her self ranting about her problems and issues in life. Unexpectedly, she sent an e-mail to a wrong account which isn't hers. Did U knew this person?
