MHA oneshots (Mostly KiriBaku)

11. KiriKami

         *Kami POV*
     I let out a sigh of relief as the bell rang signaling the end of the school day and immediately started packing up my stuff. Mr. Aizawa was standing by the door in his signature yellow sleeping bags waiting to hand us the graded tests from last week; I was not looking forward to seeing my results. It seems that no matter how much I study or how hard I try I only just barely pass if I do at all. Even when Momo has helped me study I only barely passed. Even Blasty gets better grades without hardly trying. How is everyone else so much smarter than me?  I thought, putting away the last of my notebooks.
     I shook my head trying to get those thoughts out of my head, Maybe it won't be so bad this time. Even then I felt myself starting to tear up before feeling a heavy and warm weight on my back and shoulders. I blinked away the few tears and turned to see the blinding sunshine that is my best Kirishima Eijiro.
     "Hey man!" The ever cheerful red-head said with a smile. "Hey dude. Are tou ready to see how bad I failed this time?" I said trying to put a joking tone in my voice but unsure how well I did. "Dude, don't say that. Maybe you did really well this time, you did study a lot for that test." He said hanging his arm on my shoulders as we walked to the door.
       It was a completely normal thing for him to do that; he does it with everyone. However, I had to keep my thoughts under control so I didn't turn as red as his hair. I've had a crush on him since the beginning of the school year.
      I hate myself for it. He's my best friend. Out of everyone in the whole school and I had to fall for my best friend. I'm pan and he and everyone are pretty accepting and supportive. Pretty much the whole bakusquad is in the LGBTQIA+ community in some way or another: Sero's asexual, Mina is a lesbian, Bakugo is bi, Kiri is gay, and Jiro, our honorary member, is an extreme ally. I want to tell Kiri, but I'm afraid he would hate me after and I couldn't bear to lose him.
       As we reach Mr. Aizawa at the door I brace myself for the worst as he hands me the paper. I grab it, say a quick "have a nice day", and fast walk away without even looking at it in case I start crying.  Kiri jogs to catch up but slows down and puts his arm back around my shoulders as he says "So, what did you get?" with a hopeful tone.
Dryly, I respond " I haven't looked at it yet." He looks at me confused, sort of like a puppy as he asks "Why not dude? What are you waiting for?" and I don't have a response so I just keep walking.
         We continue walking in silence for a bit until Kiri pipes up again, "Do you want to hang out and play video games or something?" I couldn't say no to that; I needed a distraction and video games with Kiri were always one of my favorite things to do. "Sure. Do you want to go to your room or mine? I don't really care which." We decided we'd go to his almost right as we reached the dorms and headed straight up.
        I decided to take a look at my test score while we were walking up the steps, bad idea, I stopped in my tracks. This was the worst score out of all of them. Kiri noticed I stopped and looked back to see what was wrong. Without looking at him I said "Maybe we should just hang out later I need to go study." trying to keep the sadness out of my voice. Before he could even try to sa anything I turned back around to head back down to my room; nearly running so Kirishima couldn't keep up.
        Making it to my room safely I locked the door, threw my backpack down and started to finally let the tears flow as I nearly fell to the ground. I failed. Even after all the hours of studying and taking notes and all the preparation I took, I still failed.
       Maybe my family was right. Maybe I should never have come to U.A. I've never been smart enough, I should have known that wouldn't change. It's true I didn't really try in middle school; I didn't really see a point. But I really tried this time. I spent hours reading every textbook and taking notes, staying up in the middle of the night or not sleeping at all just trying to study, trying until my brain felt like jell-o similar to when I overuse my quirk.  I really am just a dumb knock-off Pikachu like everybody says. I don't belong at U.A.
          I didn't have long to sit and cry as soon I heard gentle knocking on my door and a worried voice call out "Hey Denks. Are you okay? What happened?" As much as I didn't want him to see me like this, I really didn't want to be alone right now. So with a bit of a struggle I got up from my spot against the door, wiped my face the best I could, and opened the door for my friend.
       Once the door was open he immediately had his arms around me and asking a ton of questions so fast I couldn't understand them much less answer them. I just shut the door and stood there hugging my best friend and crying into his shoulder without knowing how long we were standing there. His arms around me felt warm and strong, but mostly they felt safe. They felt like home: HE felt like home.
      After a while he pulled away just enough to see my face to ask "Do you want to talk about it or do you want to just continue hugging?" He had the sweetest voice that instantly made me feel better. I tried to catch my breath enough to form a response but I couldn't,  so he pulled me close again, picked me up and walked over to my bed in the corner of the room. He laid down, pulling me down with him, and just held me until my breaths evened out and I fell asleep with the scent of Kiri's body wash and the even sound of his heartbeat.

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     I woke up in complete peace and not knowing where I was for a second or who was hugging me but soon remembered what happened and instantly felt terrible. I was supposed to play video games and instead cried about test results and fell asleep with my crush cuddling me. It was supposed to be a fun afternoon but instead I ruined it with my failures. And now my best friend and crush has seen me cry and fall asleep cuddling him like a baby and now hes probably going to hate me because that wasnt manly at all. How could I be such an idiot?
      I was snapped out of my thoughts by movement beside me; Kirishima noticed I was awake and moved his had to move some hair out of my face. I must look like a wreck right now. To my surprise he only looked at me with a gentle smile as he said "Do you want to talk about it? I won't judge you for anything. I can either offer you advice, comfort, or I can just listen. Whichever you want." I slowly sat up and looked out the window to see the sun was starting to go down. How long was I asleep? As if reading my mind Kiri said " You've been asleep for about 2 and a half hours. I figured I would just let you sleep, you seem like you needed it." My heart about melted. If I could have fallen for him any harder, I couldn't anymore. 
      To avoid blushing like an idiot I just got up and grabbed the test paper from where I had thrown it with my backpack earlier. Wordlessly walking back to the bed where Kiri was now sitting up, I handed him the paper and sat next to him with my head low. He looked at the page before looking at me but I didn't want to look at him. I didn't want to see the inevitable disappointment on his face; he's never shown disappointment before but my score was lower than ever and I was bracing myself for the worst. After a while he said  "Denks, can you look at me?" I just shook my head and continued staring at the floor willing back more tears from falling.
      I felt the bed move and though he was just going to leave because he was so disappointed and I had to try even harder not to cry. I was surprised when he only kneeled in front of me and lifted my chin gently to look at him and he smiled. "Denki, it's OK. You can try again and I can help you study if you want. Besides you are more than just grades on a paper. You have one of the coolest quirks here and I know you are going to make an amazing hero some day. If anyone tells you otherwise they are wrong and don't know what they're talking about. You just need to have faith in yourself. I know you can do it and I will always help you if you need it." He was so beautiful in that moment that I just couldn't stop myself. Before I even realized the thought had crossed my mind, the words were out and I couldn't take them back. The three words I had been holding back since the beginning of the school year and I just said them. " I love you". I might have been able to laugh it off if not for the sheer amount of emotion in my voice that was obvious even to me.
       To my surprise he didn't immediately get up and leave. He didn't do anything that I thought he would have, I was caught so off guard by the next words out of his mouth. Even looking down I could hear the smile in his words as he lifted my chin up again and said in a soft tone " I love you too. I've been waiting for the right time to tell you." And the he caught me completely off guard by leaning up and kissing me. Just a soft touch, barely there, but it still had my heart racing and me struggling to remember how to breath. I leaned down and kissed him back and said " Eijiro, do you want to be my boyfriend?" He didn't answer for a bit, probably stunned I asked, but my anxiety took over and I started rambling. " I'm sorry.You don't have to.We could keep it secret if you want.Or not.You don't even have to say yes.You don't even have to answer.I'm really sorry if I made it awkward.You don't have to answer right now.I get it if you don't want to date me.We can just pretend this never happened.I'll forget all about it and we can just be friends if you wa-" He cut me off with a gentle kiss and even more surprising said " Denki I would love to be your boyfriend. I've loved you for a while but I was trying to wait for the perfect moment to ask you out but I could never think of anything that was good enough. You are amazing and you deserve nothing but the absolute best and i will try my hardest to give that to you. Do you want to go public? I get you have a lot of anxiety about this and I want to make sure you're comfortable with it. We can keep it secret if you want it doesn't matter to me as long as I get to be with you." I stared at him for a little, wondering if this was actually happening,  before breaking out in a huge smile and saying " We can go public. I'm just surprised you actually said yes. I've loved you for so long but I didn't think you could ever feel the same way so I hid it." He chuckled a little before kissing me again before saying " I love you Denks. Do you want to go get dinner now? The sun is down but neither of us has eaten since lunch. I'm sure we kind find something to eat in the common room kitchen. It may not be as good as Lunch Rush's food though."
With a laugh and another quick kiss we held each others' hand as we walked down to the kitchen.