Soukoku || Temptation

chapter 1. scars

WARNING: Smut, Suicide topics, and Self harm topics

"fuck dazai, right there"

i could feel chuuya wrapping his legs around my waist, he was close.

I rammed myself into him harder and faster as I could feel my legs getting unstable.

shit, I'm about to cum

i bit down on my lip as I felt overwhelming pleasure take over my body.

I could feel chuuya shaking as well, he must've orgasmed at the same time as me.

sweat was beading on my forehead, I slowly pulled out of my play-thing.

My name is Osamu Dazai, and this story is one of much sorrow.

Oh, and the man I just finished inside of? His name is Chuuya Nakahara.

No, he's not my boyfriend, or even a friend at that. he's actually my enemy.

"you bastard, did you finish inside me again!?"

chuuya was yelling at me, nothing new.

"didn't I say to use a condom this time"

'I just made you cum atleast show me a little gratitude.'
I thought to myself.

'why do you hang around this useless, pathetic, lame excuse for a man?' you may be asking.

well that's because-

"your an asshole dazai"

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"but atleast your dick is good for something."

I smiled with pride at his compliment, my pet is actually being good for once.

"awwh chuuya~ you're never this nice to me"

Just as my fucktoy said, I keep him around for pleasure obviously.

I mean, I could get any girl I want to hook up with me.

but oh do I love seeing chuuya get annoyed.

chuuya stared daggers into me, it was almost like I could feel his hatred fuming off of him.

but luckily for all of us instead of barking at me again, he decided to pull out a cigarette.

I watched as he carefully put the cigarette in his mouth, then lit it with a nearby lighter.

he took a puff, then held it with two fingers as he breathed out the smoke.

I saw this as a great opportunity to piss him off.

I leaned down, and took the cigeratte from his hand with my teeth.

he turned to me, surprise and anger on his face. but before he could start running his mouth, I stopped him.

I grabbed his chin forcefully to make him look up at me.

I took a puff of his cigeratte

then leaned down and bit his bottom lip flirtatiously.

it took chuuya a second to realize what was happening. but as soon as he did, he sprung back like a scared cat.

"you know, maybe that would've actually been attractive if you weren't covered in those horrendous bandages."

'there he goes barking again.'

"you know, you've never told me why you actually wear those stupid things."

chuuya said while staring up at me

"why should I tell you?"

i asked him, who does he think he is to order me around.

"I don't know maybe because I let your selfish ass fuck me everyday. plus I let you crash at my house just because your too fucked in the head to take a hint and leave."

yep he's barking again, you know I really need to buy a shock collar or something.

"fine whatever"

I know he's not gonna stop bothering me about this until I tell him. so here goes nothing..

"They simply just make me look cool!"

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"there's no way that's actually true, tell me the real reason!"

"your right... the real reason is because I have secret powers! and when the bandages are unwrapped, my dark side comes out.."

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"what do you not believe me again?"

chuuya gritted his teeth in annoyance

"you're just avoiding the question dazai. So if you're not gonna tell me then spare me your lame excuses."

I sighed deeply as a silence fell between us. I guess I should just tell him.

"I wear the bandages to cover up scars. I've impaled myself countless times, it leaves some pretty ugly ingravings."

my voice began shaking and cracking as I spoke, like a distorted record being forced to play music.

"I can't even stand to look at my own skin, I'm nothing but a monster; far from being human."

...

chuuyas angry face slowly faded into one of empathy.

"dazai... I-"

"I'm messing with you again"

"YOU JERK! to think I actually felt bad for you"

chuuya crossed his arms in anger, hatred beaming off him yet again.

i smiled as he yelled at me, a deep sense of hopelessness stirring inside my chest.

what I said was the truth, but never would i allow myself to be vulnerable to him.

"can you finally go back to your own dorm today."

chuuya paused

"wait no, this is my dorm. I get to decide if you can be here!"

chuuya turned back to glare at me

"get out."

I took a deep breath in before placing a hand on his cheek.

"but chuuya~ I'm not done here yet"

I moved myself onto his lap, grabbing his shoulders as I do.

"we only went for one round, I'm sure neither of us are satisfied."

chuuya opened his mouth to argue back, but stopped himself.

he sighed loudly before turning his face up to look at me.

"Just get on with it."

"good boy~"