BAKIT 'DI TAYO

Paano nagsimula "ulit" at bakit? may susunod pa ba?

One random night. A notification pop-up on a corner. When I see the name I panicked, look at it again and there is no notification. "Did he cancel? Is it just an imagination. No, it can't be he hadn't crossed my mind for so long". I took up a courage and I-add him up, I didn't expect that he would accept. I message him and said "How are you? "I'm ok, I'm fine" He said. Vague, shallow and calculated reply as ever.

Questions running down on my head, what... why... why now...It all come spiraling down on memories... sweet, happy, bitter and confusing. With just one question.

"Why did you cancel" I asked. "No, I'm just confused which account should add" he replied. "How are you doing?" he asked. "I recently resigned" I replied. Then he proceeded in rumbling about how he liked to have a firm, a partnership because it gives you more connections and opportunity. It's ok to start small 50/50 and it is important to have helping hand. In my head, I want to, I always like the idea. Its just that everyone wants it solo. But on the other hand, of all the people why him.

Even though we talk about professional life, my thoughts are confused. I saw his banner.

"Cause this angel has flown away from me. Leaving me in drunken misery. I should have clipped her wings. And made her mine for all eternity. Now, the angel has flown away from me. Thought I had the strength to set her free. Did what I did because I Love her so. Will she ever find her way back home to me?"

Is it me? Is it her wife? Who?

Flashback 01 – Class President and Vice President

"Your single, she's single why shouldn't be together" Niel Said. He looked at me, he didn't say anything.

{Him in this part is BF 1}

I recently broke up with with my LDR boyfriend of 3 years. (I demand time, he has no time, 1ce a month VL, and father recently passed). I'm always mad at him, selfish yeah, but I keep holding pain of having someone but still feels alone. I regret choosing him the third time. Yeah, third time. First was choosing him between the other Engineering Student on the same platform. Second, when I forgave him, when I learned that he has still communication with his Ex, when to swim and ask for a kiss. Third, I choose him over this new guy on our first year college. Whose confessing and asking me if I want a date.

Flashback 01 – 1st year College

"You're in a relationship which does not value you – you didn't see often" ---- "would you consider to be with me instead" that was his text.

As a person who's not sure of what should take. I ask my friend whom she knew him. "Is he ok, he confesses to me" I asked. "No, Miya , you should not talk to him. He as on and off long time GF, you'll get hurt". I avoided him, even wanted to join to walk with me, but I choose to be with my other guy friend.

That was it, that's when I decide to not talk to him. For 3 years and remained loyal to my first BF. Until our story hit a rough turn.

(Replay scene where our friend asked him, everything is awkward between us)

Current

I still reply very late so that he would not think that I missed him. I remember all those sweet memories.

Flashback 03 – Rainy day

I'm asking my close friend, is he really into me, because he keeps giving me this feelings and actions that he likes me even if I have a boyfriend. He said "he always says to us that you are his crush" he says that jokingly. I clung on that; I like him too, but I have a boyfriend that time. Maybe in next time when we are free.