My life behind doors

Chapter 1

Sometimes I wanna be the girl who hides behind her hair the girl who is invisible but sometimes I wanna be the bitch who never gets hurt life is hard and I know my story might not be the saddest or the most interesting but I'm speaking of my world how I feel and how I view things and how my family and school life is I'm just another teenager ranting but this is my world behind closed doors.

       I'm a nervous wreck sometimes a lazy teenage girl with hopes and dreams that feels lonely and scared of what people think. I feel depressed and alone and sometimes I think I would even like a shrink or somebody that I don't even know just to have someone to talk to. Some people view me differently I'm a teenager who wouldn't? But sometimes I'm just tired of people thinking of me as that girls friend or hey you girl or the girl who reads to much I'm just a girl who want to be free and be able to mess up and not be judged. People don't even have the slightest idea of how I feel sometimes I just read a book and just connect to the character but most people don't even know this. I like classical music I like rock music oldies and music in Spanish like reageaton, salsa.

    I love to dream about the future and think how far I'm going to get but sometimes I just give up and say yeah right like I'm ever gonna get that far. But these are my thoughts sometimes I feel lonely and like I'm always second choice and feel like I can't talk to anybody without them judging me or thinking I'm weird so I think ill write this just for the fun of it just to express myself and feel free of expression whoever is reading this I hope you could connect with my wild rants.