When Hyunjin woke up the next morning he was sweating buckets, all flushed and his breathing irregular. He then realised he was still in Felix's chest and tried to move but his body wouldn't cooperate, so he let out a whine, pushing his head further in the other's warmth, both because he was becoming more annoyed and because he was starting fell gross.
Felix woke up at that and cursed himself wondering how and why he didn't wake up sooner because the older was clearly suffering. "Oh baby.." he said as took in the pained expression and the tears in the older's face. "Do you want to take a shower first sweetheart? Can you get up?"
"Don' wanna..."
"Baby you will feel better after, I promise"
"Yongbok.. It hurts"
"I'm so sorry... I'm gonna get Chan hyung then, he can take care of you-" Felix said with sad eyes.
"No! Don't... don't leave me, please Yongbokie..."
"But Hyunjinie, you need an alpha for you to feel okay again, you need to be knotted. I won't ever be able to do that, as much as I want to..." Felix was trying so hard to contain his tears, that his voice broke in the middle of his speech.
"Yon- yongbok I don't need an alpha. I don't want an alpha! Why can't you just understand it..?! I want you Felix!"
The younger was speechless, just looking at Hyunjin with an open mouth and tears sliding his cheeks.
Hyunjin was sure of what he wanted.
He knew he loved Felix since he remembers, even before the freckled boy had presented as an omega, he knew he always has a special place in his heart.
The big doe eyes always staring at him with such love and adoration; his giggles, the most adorable sound in this world; the way they didn't need words to communicate, just a simple look capable of so much.
He didn't know if the latter felt the same way, but would enjoy his presence as long as he could, even if his feelings weren't reciprocated.
"Jinnie... Are you sure? You're conscious enough to know what you're saying right?"
Hyunjin was too overwhelmed by all of this but it didn't stoped him from pulling the younger into a kiss, to reassure him. He poured everything in that simple kiss. All the emotions he felt in that moment, all the feelings he had for the boy, all the love he wanted to express to him.
Felix didn't hesitate in kissing back, just startled for a second because of the sudden action.
They just savoured the moment in their own bubble as the kiss became more heated, not bothered with the salty taste in their mouths caused by the tears streaming down their eyes, not bothered by how sweaty Hyunjin were because of his condition, not bothered by the messed up bed they were seated on.
When they finally had the strength to pull apart, Felix admited "I don't even know what can I do to help you, I'm scared, I don't want to hurt you in any way..."
"You won't. You'll be with me right? Then I don't care."
"Of course." Felix said as he cupped the older's face with his small hand, hovered over him and began leaving small kisses all over his face; his forehead; his chin; his cheeks; his eyes, spending more time on the one with the tiny lovely mole underneath; and finally his lips, his beautiful and plump pink lips that he dad dreamt of kissing so many times before.
When they pulled back Hyunjin looked at the younger boy with hopeful eyes as he wispered.
"Please take care of me"
"I will baby, don't worry."
He moved on to his jaw and neck and the older began making small moans of excitement.
But then he stopped and as Hyunjin opened his eyes he saw a beautiful face full of freckles staring at him with his hands on the hem of his soaked shirt, silently asking for permission to take it off.
He nodded giving him a "if you don't take it off now I'm gonna die" kind of look.
