kirishima angst fic that I'll probably never finish (kiribaku?)

Insecurities. (2)

(A/N)
DISCLAIMER!! Bakugou already knows about Kirishimas past and his hair being dyed, along with his self esteem issues because he's told him about it.
In this story, at least lol.
!!Slight Kiribaku!!

Bakugou's pov.

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For whatever reason, the damn extras sent me to go get Kirishima because it was "boring" without him. And even though there might've been a little truth to that statement, I honestly couldn't give a fuck whether he was hanging out with us or not... at least, that's what I told myself..
But here I was now, walking over to his dorm to grab him.

It was definitely uncharacteristic of shitty hair to be in his dorm at this hour, since he usually hangs out with all of us in the common room before night approaches. "His ass better not be sleeping." I thought to myself, letting out a sigh. Eventually, I reached his dorm and gave a small knock at the door. Before he could say anything, I called out to him.

"OI SHIT HAIR!! The stupid extras were wondering where you were. Tch, you better not be sleeping." I said, still irritated that the stupid nerds decided to send me after him. I waited impatiently for a moment until I heard the doorknob twist, being met with...
A "happy" kirishima? No, he was definitely not happy.. he had a tear stained face and an obviously forced smile. Still, he kept his upbeat attitude and spoke in his usual boisterous tone.

"Hey bakubro! Sorry if I worried anyone.. I was just in the shower. Training was pretty tiring." He said sheepishly. What he said didn't technically sound untrue, since he was the type to train a lot. Maybe even too much. But I was more concerned about the fake smile he had plastered on his face. I spoke in an annoyed sounding tone, but really I was concerned about him as much as I hated to admit it. I wasn't going to beat around the bush.

"Yeah yeah, whatever. If you think I'm gonna believe that half assed smile of yours, then you're wrong. What the hells up with you?" I said bluntly. It came out quite harshly, but my intent wasn't to be an asshole. Kirishimas eyes slightly widened at that. "Shit. Maybe that was too harsh?" I pondered, but Kirishimas voice stopped my pondering and he tried to reassure me he was fine.

"Listen.. I'm fine! Don't worry, 'kay man? Like I said, training was tiring!" He said, trying to keep my worrying from rising. But something else rose with that worry, and it was my anger. It was typical of shitty hair to bottle up his feelings like this and keep things from others, but I didn't want him to keep these things to himself. It'll only make stuff worse on his end. I took a deep breath in and exhaled, trying to contain my anger so I didn't lash out on him. That would only make things worse. I then spoke, a hint of annoyance still lingering in my voice.
"Fine. Don't expect me not to talk to you about this later though, idiot. Now c'mon." I got a tight grip on his arm and pulled him out the door, dragging his feet as I lead him out to the common room with the others. Honestly, the only reason I did drag him was to release my pent up anger. It was effective, to say the least. He frantically spoke, confused why I was dragging him.

"O-ow! Hey, I can walk y'know?! You don't need to-!" I interrupted him by suddenly tossing him onto the couch next to the others. That's when Iida suddenly lecturing me almost immediately while doing his stupid hand movements. Geez, talk about helicopter parenting. I wasn't paying attention to what he was saying and rolled my eyes.

Time skip bc we need something new up in this bitch.
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Some time had past and almost everyone left the common room while I stood in my spot, and that's when Kirishima sat up to leave and go to his dorm. I followed after him, walking alongside him. I hadn't forgotten about the talk we were supposed to have. I spoke up.

"Don't think I've forgotten about earlier shit hair. I'm coming with you to your dorm and we can talk." I said forthrightly, my voice sounding surprisingly calm. If something was wrong with Kirishima, I didn't want to add to the issue. I heard him mutter a small "Alright" in response. We both eventually arrived and he sat down on his bed. I sat beside him on his bed, keeping a good distance so it wouldn't be awkward. There was an uncomfortable amount of silence for a moment until it became irritating and I spoke up.

"So, are you gonna talk or should I leave?" I said, a hint of annoyance in my voice that was unplanned. He got rather startled by me suddenly speaking, since it was silent for so long. He spoke hesitantly.
"R-right.. uh.. I guess I was just having self esteem issues again.. I guess.. my hair when it's down like this, it reminds me of who I used to be.. I thought I solved the problem by dying it but.. it's just coming back to haunt me.  I've been thinking about it too much.. maybe my physical appearance has changed, but.."

"Im still weak at heart."

Pov shift,
Kirishimas pov.

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"...Im still weak at heart." I finished, staring at the ground. I could feel bakugous eyes staring at me as tears threatened to fall out of my eyes. It was silent for a moment, but that's when I felt something..

A hand... on my shoulder. From.. bakugou..?
Now this felt like a dream. Like, a literal dream. It didn't seem real for bakugou to do such a nice gesture but here we were. I then looked up at him as he began to speak, feeling my cheeks heat up.

"Listen to me, Eijirou. You are anything BUT weak. As heroes, we've all gone through things that make us hesitant instead of acting out immediately. Even me. It doesn't make you any less of a "man" either. It means you're human, because that's a natural response to things. You're not "weak at heart," because that means you lack courage. And you don't. You've done so many things that could put your life at risk just for the sake of being a hero, things that have even worried me sometimes. You're not weak at heart....

"....You're just human."

(A/N)
1147 words
God damnit I'm gonna cry 😖😖
I could've definitely worded it better but, if it's doing this much to me then I must've done pretty damn good 👍
Part 3 will be out soon probably, because I have lots of motivation for some reason. I haven't even slept 😀