The thoughts that I hold.

Delusion

They say this ain't love but anxiety and fear of abandonment. But it doesn't have to be hurt that much when I miss him right? Right now I'm running away. Just don't know why and from what. Deep down I know I will fall into this rabbit hole again and again. Trying to sort my feelings out but it isn't working. Thought the feelings were mutual, but I was being delusional all the time. It's pathetic and embarrassing. This stupid girl here isn't still learning her lesson. Hope that one day she'll learn to move on and love herself...