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I don't believe  in love. but I want too. I want  someone  who can help me to believe in love who can never leave me alone. and me feel wanted but it only exisit in books  or something like movies. love is temporary I think it is not eternal by humans. I wish I can find love but I know  I will never. i want  to fall in love an enjoy  it how it has to be enjoyed like how in the movie they do it like  physical touch. like in the  movies how you find eachother in a crazy way. that's make it good as heaven. i want to be love but I don't believe in love at the same time. that's crazy I know .I wish I can  find a partner who can  make feel good In every way. thats makes me to believe in love. I wish I can but I don't think so. i really  don't find anyone attractive except mate. i don't  know him as much. we just  know eachother  in social media. that's sucks because i know  it  won't  last  forever  if you find your partner at social media. like how darke and  i do .we ended up breaking up. thats sure thing. yeah. i wanna ghost and be new. since  i am going to new school i have to be new. and also what to do for my summer camp that will start tuesaday.

dumb me. I cant even know when july 17 will be my stupid ass says it is Tuesday but actually the summer camp starts Monday. i feel dumb as hell. anyway things didn't go my way I plan to wash my  hair do some stuff on Monday but in this case I don't think so. i am nervous as usual. yeah but I have to do it bascketball is my thing I don't want  my weakness side to win. I know that I am not good at bascketball. some people even tell me to focus on girly things like makeup ,fashion like girly stuff. I am not attracted to them .that's doesn't mean I am not like others girls .i do love girly stuff but not that much. I don't really do makeup stuff or something I don't have the courage to do that,also I don't to waste my money anyway.

yeah, friday huh I love Friday it is free day.it just feel good.only two days left for summer camp. I know it is normal.but not for me. it is special for me. I know it would be different from others.i can sense it. maybe this summercamp will make my  wish to be come true.

I always want to make new  friends. yeah that's my wish. it is good wish tho. just  can't help with it. having friends is good and bad at same time.i want to make new friends.no fake friends. for memories for my self. i see so many people being lonely by so many reason.they say they want to alone and some of them say they can't find one and some of them even have friends but they just one attention. but having person by your side is a good thing. i want that. i don't wanna carry late  at night telling God i am lonely.that's bad. i don't want to express that. nobody have to do that. they just have to find someone.

looking up the summer camp will be  at international school. yeah,that's sucks. i hate international students. i don't know they  just question a lot.that's make me mad.i don't know how i am gonna hang out with them .no idea. but i have too.to male my wish true. i have to take a risk. being friends with rich blah blah kids.

yeah my  parents are rich. i can go to rich school. but  i am not rich. i mean they live like rich. but me my parents are rich but i live like poor. i am too lazy. i don't want to be dependent.so yeah that's it.

Hey guys I hope you like this chapter there is nothing new but yeah don't be mad at me if there is spelling errors or capitalizing I love you so much❤️
What do you think about Liz?answer at the comment babez💕