Mr. Evil | Taejin

4.

Seokjin opened his eyes with Tannie on his side. He was curled up in his sleep and letting out soft snore. Jin pat the dog's head and gave him a kiss. He got up only to feel an extreme headache for crying his heart out last night.

"Ugh... my head," he moaned and hold onto his head as he walks, heading to the bathroom to wash his face. He was planning to go to the grocery store to buy Tannie's food and his.

Jin stared a himself in the mirror as tears begin to fall from his eyes. He still couldn't believe it. Is he never enough? Is he not taking care of his boyfriend enough? Or is he not beautiful enough for his boyfriend to find another guy? He's asking himself all those questions for he can't understand why. He did everything. He loved him whole-heartedly. He gave him everything. Was that... never enough for him to stay loyal and faithful with Jin?

It's very painful for Jin. He had loved him for a long time: he had stay loyal with him long enough: he had trust him, yet his boyfriend did this. He made Jin cry when he promised to himself the he'll never ever stain Jin's pretty face with a painful tear.

However, Jin wants to hear why did his boyfriend do that? He wants him to explain but, at the same time, he doesn't want to hear lies and see the face of a man that shattered his precious heart full of love.

Once he's done picking his clothes in his closet, he closed it and found Tannie sitting on the bed, licking his paw. Jin smiled, wears his clothes and walked towards the dog to pet him.

Will Tannie leave me? Or will he also hurt me the way people did? I hope he won't. I... I hope he'd stay with me forever.

"I'm leaving for a while, Tannie, okay? I'll be back with your food and some toys. Be a good boy." he ruffles the dog's head and gave him another kiss.

It hasn't been twenty-four hours but Jin was so attached to the dog and he didn't know why. Maybe because Tannie makes him happy somehow. Tannie accompanied him the whole night when he was crying. The dog never leave his side until he falls asleep.

Jin twist the door knob to open it only to see his ex boyfriend waiting outside his house with a bouquet of flowers in his hand.

"Love, please, let's talk." he tried touching the other man's hand but Jin slapped it away.

"There's nothing to talk about. We're done." he said coldly, but deep down inside his heart, he's hurt. He's hurt so much.

"Let me enlighten you, love, please!" he cried and dropped on his knees. "You know I love you so much. I wouldn't do such things! T-that night was just an accident. It was him w-who did that, please! I love you! I can't lose you, Jin." he cried harder and hugged Jin's knees.

"Stupid. He'll do something stupid then he'll ask for forgiveness? Argh, why are people like that? How annoying." Tannie thought as he was watching the two.

"It's over. It is what it is. You're gonna be a father soon. Isn't that what you want?" Jin couldn't help but cry, remembering how this man in front of him badly wants to become a father with their soon-to-be child, but now, he'll be a father of someone else's child.

"But I want it to be you! I don't want to be with someone else, I want to be with you. I love you, Jin. I love you." he cried, not letting go of Jin's knees.

People who have been passing would stare at them.

"If you could just control yourself, that wouldn't happen. Maybe..." he sighed as he's preventing himself to burst into tears. "Maybe we're having our good time together. Maybe you and I are still happy together. But you... you ruined it."

"I'm sorry, I'm so so so sorry. Please, come back to me. Let's fix this. We can still fix this, please." he said, kissing Jin's knees.

The latter helped him up. "Even if I forgive you, we... we can never go back to what we used to be. You know that I grew up without a father, and I don't want your child to grow up without you. I want you to love your child whole-heartedly. Give your child the life he deserves. Now, please, leave. Don't ever come back. Don't ever sow yourself to me." he said slamming the door shut.

He clenched his fist and cried silently as his head was resting on the door. It hurts him, but letting the person he love go was the best and the right thing to do. Jin has already forgiven him, but he wouldn't forgive himself if he become selfish and let the child grow up without a father.

Tannie walked over to him and rest his head on Jin's foot to show that he's only there for him: and that no matter what happens, he'll stay. Jin bend over to pick Tannie up and hugged him tight. He cried his heart out once again.

"Cry until the pain is over, Jin. You'll soon forget what that bastard did to you. I know you're strong, I believe you." he thought. He really wished he could talk to he could comfort Jin. And maybe in that way, he could may the latter fall for him.

It has been almost two hours before Jin finally calmed down. Tannie was just sitting on his lap, still didn't leave his side. He wiped his tears away and gently slapped his cheeks. "Oh, come on, Jin." he said to himself.

Tannie looked at him with worried puppy eyes, he tilted his head to ask Jin if he was now fine. "Ah, yes! Your food. I'm sorry you have to see me cry. I better go now to buy you food." he stood up, placed Tannie on the couch and fixed himself. "I won't be long! Be a good boy, Tannie! he said and slammed the door shut.

"Wow, just look at him. After he cried for almost two hours, he still can wear that beautiful smiley face. How can he manage to be beautiful like that? Is he an angel or what? Am I in heaven? Wait, no, I'm an evil. Argh! What was I thinking?!"

Suddenly, he felt dizzy that he almost fell from the couch. "What's this? I-I feel so weak. Is it because I'm hungry? Or it's something else?"

Seokjin was walking down the street, spaced out. He couldn't think straight. His mind is messed up. His heart is hurt, angry, and disappointed. He doesn't know how he would feel. He's messed up.

BEEP!

"Woah! Watch out!" a stranger guy held Jin's shoulder to stopped him from crossing the street because of a speeding car. "Aish, that driver. He must have to use the bathroom. Anyways, are you okay?" he asked, but Jin is still spaced out. He clicked his fingers on Jin's face and the latter finally blinked his eyes.

Jin looked up at him, "Uh... w-who are you?" he asked. Obviously didn't remember what just happened.

"You didn't-- nevermind. I'm Jungkook." the guy with toned chest and big body, with tattoos on his right arm introduced himself to Jin.

"Nice to meet you, Mr., I have to go now." Jin bowed ninety degrees and left.

Jungkook followed him by a confused look. "What's with him? He seemed to be in deep thoughts."

Jin finally arrived at the grocery store and started looking for some things he'll be needed.

He has been walking around the store for ten minutes but his hands are empty. 'Wait, what was I looking for again?" he asked himself and groaned. "How can I forgot what I was gonna buy?!" he cursed under his breath.

After a few more minutes, he finally got everything he needs, and even Tannie's food. He was on the cashier to pay off his purchases. Once it's done, he thanked the cashier and leave the store.

He was now standing before the pedestrian lane when he suddenly remembered that he almost got hit by a car because of his carelessness. But luckily, someone saved him.

"Fuck. How can I be so careless while walking on the road? What if he's not there to save me? I'm probably dead by now." he took a deep breath as he's scolding himself. "But who was that person? I didn't even hear his name or see his face clearly! How should I thank him in the future?"

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hello! it has been a while, hasn't it? how are you guys doing? i am very sorry for not updating regularly these past months :(( i am also sorry if you ever find this chapter boring. but i swear, i did my best! but i guess i am not use to writing anymore. well, our vacation from school is 5 weeks so ig i can update my stories more often.:))