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(I'm sorry if this is shit I've tried my best and hopefully it won't go wrong xx)
Yn POV
I don't know what to do. I've told mattheo I needed a break from are relationship for a bit as my mental health comes first. But I feel bad for some reason. But it's not like we've broken up. It's only a break while my mental health gets better.
But also my anxiety is saying he thinks we've broken up. He shouldn't tho as I said it was a break and I never said we were breaking up.
I'm right now in my dorm laying in bed as we haven't got classes today so I can chill.
This is normally when mattheo would come in to get in bed with me but that's not happening for a bit.
It's definitely weird not having mattheo with me but it's for the better.
And I'll get properly with him and everything will b ok again and we can be happy.
I know mattheo wasn't the happiest when I said I need a break and he immediately said he can be better but none of this is his fault and there's nothing he can do so he finally agreed bu I know he's still not happy.
I wouldn't be if he needed a break but I would understand as mental health always comes first.
I get up and grabs my diary thati always right in abt everything.
Dear diary I finally did it. I told mattheo I needed a break and I needed some time away from him. But something feels off. Like he thinks we've broken up an he'll go an fuck a random girl out of angriness or to get back at me. But I know mattheo better then that. He wouldn't do that. I hope. I mean ever since I met him three years ago he's never even rlly looked at another girl the way he looks at me. And I love him for that. But my mental health isn't the best and I need a break away from everything and I can also get my grades back up to where they need to be. I mean there fine but mattheo always distracts me with his beauty when I try to study or do homework so there not the best but that's not his fault. Anyway I'm getting off track likei always do. I think this is for the best but I rlly hope he understands that to. I might go and talk to him to make sure he's ok as I'm no gonna completely blank him am not talk to him like we've broken up as we haven't. Anyway that's it for today I'll write tmrw. Yn x
I then put my diary away where I hide it so no one finds it and reads it then I get on some comfy clothes that's not mattheos to go get some breakfast.
I then throw my hair in a messy bun and goes to the great Hall.
On the way there I see mattheo by himself so I go to him but I'm abt to say something when a girl goes to him so I stop and kin of watches as he hasn't noticed me.
