M Y C N S T N T

🌻ELEVEN🌻

🌻 L I S A 🌻

I calmly sat in the chair, waiting for Jen to finish her bath.

It was hauntingly quiet and peaceful here aside from the sound of the rain outside. The lantern beat back the darkness, casting shadows in the hidden corners of the room. I held up my hand against the yellow light from the lamp, playing with my own shadows. The rain cascaded down with the sound of raindrops growing louder, and the raw wind whistled through the air outside. It kept raining for a while, and I continued to be lost deep in my own thoughts. My clothes were a little bit wet with rainwater, but I was way too preoccupied to feel cold.

Preoccupied with the thought of how did this happened? How did we end up like this? Everything seems perfect, Jen and my brother looked so happy, and then all of a sudden she was here with me, asking for help I didn't know the cause. Right now, I am questioning myself over and over again.

Is she really worth it?

I know for a fact that I don't need her to survive. I survived those fcking 4 years without her; I accept myself unconditionally and practice self-love. I have been through a lot of pain all those years, and those years I recognized that I no longer needed to please others, yet I am here with her.

"Lisa..." I was taken aback when I heard her voice calling me, standing in front of me. I didn't notice Jen was watching me.

Is she really worth the risk?

I looked at her for a little longer before convincing myself. I stood up and walked to her.

"Tell me everything, Jennie. I'll fight for you." She was shocked for a moment, followed by her silent sobs. That's when I felt her arms around me. "I'll do anything for you, just tell me how we ended up in this situation."

"I'm sorry, Lisa." I let go of her and held her chin up to meet her eyes, but she kept on avoiding me.

"Look at me," I commanded her, and that was the time she slowly met my eyes. "I need to know, Jennie. I have the right to know because I got involved." There was a long silence between us.

"I want to tell you everything, Lisa. It's just that I'm so scared that you'll leave me or you might do something—I don't know what to think. I'm a mess, Lisa." I took a deep breath and cupped her cheeks. I wanted to know what really happened, but I wanted her to tell me willingly.

I sigh in defeat.

"I won't force you to trust me, but you can tell me whenever you're ready." I kissed her forehead. "Rest for now, I'll be taking my shower."

"Lisa, I want to but-" 

"It's okay. Don't think about it. I understand. Take your time and I'll be waiting whenever you are ready. For now, take some rest. It's already late." I didn't wait for her to respond. I immediately got inside the bathroom.

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The sound of rushing water calms every nerve in my body. The first cold drops of water pour on me, washing all my anxiety away and stopping me from overthinking things. But it quickly becomes warm, and soon warm steam fills the room, and for some reason, this is such a satisfying sensation.

While taking my time inside the bathroom, I heard a loud, deafening crack of thunder, followed by a shout from Jennie. Without hesitating, I ran outside, not minding that I was soaked in water.

"Jennie!" I scan through the room only to see her in the corner beside the bed. I immediately ran toward her. "You okay?"

"Lisa." She hugged me, and I felt her shivering in fear.

"Hush. It's okay, I'm here." The storm produced another earth-shattering crack and a blinding flash of light. The storm seemed to be collecting more and more energy with every minute that passed by.

We stayed in that position for a while. It took me a few moments before I came to my senses and realized that I didn't have anything on me.

"Sht," I said, biting my lips. I held her close to me. I don't want her to see me naked. "Jennie, I want you to close your eyes. Don't move a muscle. I don't have anything on me right now, so please don't peak." I heard her chuckle, then a nod. "I'll be finishing my shower, ok? I'll be quick." I kissed her forehead, then she let go. I immediately finished everything for a few minutes, then came back. But she was already asleep while lying down in the corner, so I carried her to bed and tucked her in.

I was about to move when she held my shirt.

"Sleep here beside me, please."

"Are you sure?" She just nodded as her answer. I hesitated at first because this was the first time we would be in one bed. I'm not thinking of doing anything with her, it's just that I feel like there's something inside me that wants to explode, my heart is racing, it's cold, yet I'm sweating.

"Lisa, I don't bite." I heard her chuckle again.

"H-hey! What do you mean?" she didn't answer. Before I could withdraw my mind from its faraway places, I released deep breaths and slowly lay down beside her. With a huge space between us, I can't make myself relax knowing she's just inches away from me.

Then I felt her warm hands on me.

"Please, just for tonight, hold my hand." With her request, I indeed felt the relaxing sensation of her warmth.

"I won't let go, I promise." Lightning flashed across again, brightening the room out of its darkness for only a single moment. I felt her grip on my hand. I moved closer and put my hands around her.

"Rest now, Jennie. I'll be here when you wake up."

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Third person

"Sir, it's really hard to track them down. All the marks were washed away by the storm. There's no CCTV in this area." the man in the suite informed Tae about the investigation after the commotion.

"I don't fckng care about the details! I don't pay you to report me this nonsense, you heard me?" 

"Y-yes Sir."

"I will fcked you up and kill your family if you don't bring her to me in 24hrs!"

"Sir, we did everything."

"Don't fcking give me excuses, or I'll cut your throat in front of your daughter, Mariano."

"Y-yes Sir." then the man left the room.

"Babe, calm down," said the girl who is now seducing Tae-hyung.

"Who are you to tell me what to do? You're just a fcking bitch."

"What the hell did you just call me?" She stormed up to him, but before she even had the chance to slap him, Tae grabbed her neck and pinged her down to the table.

"Ughh, S-stop, I can't breathe."

"Who the hell are you to tell me what to do? You are nothing but a whore. Stay the fck out of me or I'll rip your tongue off and feed it to your mother." he then let her go and run out. He massages his forehead and looks at Jennie's picture on the table.

"You can't run away from me Jen." 

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