Fears

Fear comes out in my dreams during the night. Scenes play of my lover doing unforgivable acts. Nightmares flood my mind of my partner betraying me. Because I am not enough. I think I'm afraid because I've finally let go of myself and melded with the person that I'm with. I'm not falling in love, I've completely fallen. He's my forever, my past, my present, and my future. And a life without him isn't something I want to know. I think that's where the fear comes from. Losing all I know. Everything I have lays deep inside that man's chest. My whole soul is in his heart. My heart is in his hands. And I hope my body is in his mind. His is in mine. I'm so in love and I couldn't feel more safe, and that's what's scary. It's something I haven't experienced before. I've gotten used to being on my toes. Preparing for the worst and to finally let go of fear is the easiest and hardest thing to do. Because that was my constant and now all this love is consistent.