Not everyone in my class is ordinary well atleast most people, me and my associates don't get along very well but we don't even talk to them so Not really associates well me and aviwe are the ones that don't talk when everyone one else talks in class when the teacher leaves but at lunch we sometimes talk to others I only talk when he's Not looking.But a girl named shashanieda gets on my nerves I always want to just literally smack her and the bad part about it is that I Have anger issues I'm so glad I learned how to control them thanks to my mom and anger manegment teacher I love them both because I will remember this in college.I still can't control them for very long She knows I Have problems and yet She pushes my buttons and it makes me run off somewhere that I'm Not supposed to so I thank god from helping me every step of the way because He let me control what I Have to undertake most of my life well for the rest of my life and as long as I live.and back to shashanieda She is so nastyy because She breaths on us, always on our a##'es like Were gay to just because the fifth grade boy named micheal and girl named shayla went with her doesn't mean we are going to.but back to explaining Why I don't like her She does things to try to make people Not like me like her.and She turns twists my words to make it like I said something bad about people. I learned things the hard way in 3rd grade because I Have a temper where if a teacher yells at me I run off, go off on them or hit them.when I decide to come back to class I'm still Not cooled but I couldn't control it and that's Why I say thank you to the people that help me through thick and thin.Everytime I try Not to go off I do it anyways so I take it out on myself and I just feel like life is over for me because some people push me off the edge. I refuse to let myself fall because I know I am strong enough to fight the erge and fellings so instead I express it through poetry.
PART 2
man I wish my life wasn't so complicated like others I want to live and know I'm alive inside I'm not ever going to think about killing myself no matter how many times I mess up because that's not the key. I want to live on knowing I'm free and not a slave I love life the way it is. If I ever thought about it I would be furious knowing that the slaves died for us to be free.but there is one thing wrong with life today and that's the 5,0000 people that died day by day and I'm glad its not me that lost a perfectly good life. But the one person I miss is my great grandma She had a hard time fighting cancer.but She fought it until She died january 12,2012 so I became very depressed and became very quieter just thinking about it I even stopped eating for a while well the point is I miss her and I wish She was still here with me.
part 3
in school people don't care about Who they pick on as long as they pick on someone I wish they would just stop acting like there better than others like Omg they irratate me to death I wish I could stand up for myself and the others but I'm to down in the dirt since never knowing how to because I hate violence here and on the streets. the boys are barley a problem atleast some of them.And now I admit I liked jalarion but now I don't because He thinks just because He went with all bad girls and they totally kicked him to the curve doesn't mean He has to take it out on everyone because He can't tell Who likes him and Who does like me I used to like him so much but He never could notice. But He can't except that I do despite that I talk and play with him alot .I just hate him from this day on it's like everything he does just annoy's me .
PART 4
On friday may 17,2013 danielle told him that I said I wanted to kiss him on the lips and I didnt because everyone knows I like jaden so she like totally emmbaresed me in front of him I was so pissed off because this b1tch because everyone actually believed her and when I tried to explain to jalarion he tots ignored me like I wasnt even there so im like okay okay is everybody gonna think I'm a slut so I called him on ovoo he anwered and I finally got to apologize thought I might um I'm sorry but I used to like you but I don't know and I swear I didnt say that shit I swear muthafucker ;^( byee then I hung the fuck up thats it thats all mufucka.
PART 5
Jaden knows I like him but yet he came to my moms car and says hi so she looks confused for a minute then says hi so she says who is that in a whispering voice and I put my hand over my face and shake my head so uh ohh he starts saying takeia got and I knew what he was gonna say so I started jerkin my head like nigga move around and yet he finished like in trouble point blank period dont come yo ass back to my moms car unless I let you met her as a boyfriend but no im never going with him unless were 16 but that dont mean I dont like you I do but damnn.
