A bunch of random stories of self harm for those who need it!

four

tw: suicide

"please can we not talk about this? im literally on the verge of killing myself" I typed theough my tears, trying to focus on the chat while the bottles sat on my desk infront of me both filled halfway, both different otc painkillers, both containing five times the lethal dosage. i counted the night before.

"You know what? just do it. bye."

the tears worsened as i tried to type im sorry in response but it didnt go through. he blocked me. i just dropped my phone. it didnt make a noise since it fell on a pile of blankets on my floor. i just grabbed my razor to keep myself from crying. i grabbed it and made some cuts in my lower arm and watch them bleed. it worked as the tears went away and i became numb again. i looked down at my phone, seeing a notification on my friend. he was just crying on the bus with me when i was telling him my plan. he begged me not to. i gave him my favourite necklace before i left. i checked it.

"Please don't kill urself u mean so so much to me and I promise to wear the necklace forever and never take it off of me and I won't forget u u are so prefect to me"

"ill text you if im about to take the pills"

"...please dont francis."

"i cant promise anything onyx."

"everyone hates me. if i go back on monday azaliah will just punch and kick me like usual and make fun of me anyways. i might as well just die."

my body got tired and i decided to just get up and go to bed. i dont have the energy to kill myself tonight.

"what did i do to make andy hate me?"

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not exactly how it went but those are the actual texts from that night. this is an old story from a few months ago before school ended in usa.

for context on the first message i was having to deal with drama of an ex friend and my other friend and i was already in a bad state of mind.