The Star Prince || PJM

30.A smile so worthy.

Often there is always this question in the depths of your mind, if you were truly yourself or was this again a facade of yours to protect yourself from others and different kind of people's. Was the real you still hidden or you just accepted the fact that you can never show any emotions out openly?

There were times you even feel weird smiling because you were never happy with anything, just that expression of nothingness on your face which already made you a bad person in everyone's eyes. People already see you unwelcoming and so now you don't even care what people think of you as.

You never cared to begin with.

Because showing emotions was like giving birth to some new kind of emotions which you were afraid of honestly. For you, emotions was like a weapon for people, they use them and show the world their weakness or their happiness. Supposedly your thoughts were different, thinking if someone wants something they use their emotions to pursue anyone.

That's when the fake sympathy card comes out which you hated to your guts.

So it was better for you to be emotionless with no emotion whatsoever with you. There are times when you have random break downs which you yourself don't have any idea to why you use to have that for again, no reason in particular.

However you always know that something is empty, that in the back of your mind you wanted to be genuinely free.

Genuinely smile for once.

But you never did, and you know maybe that emptiness was already lingering around no matter what. Or maybe you were so use to your grumpy self that other emotions faild to overpower it now. Maybe emotions itself was tired of yourself, you will agree with that because you were tired yourself, with everything.

It's been a while that you had opened your eyes after sleeping for few hours and indeed you needed it, feeling your body functioning much better then before, your muscles much relaxed then before and you felt fresh within. You were staring up at the ceiling without having blinked forever now, knowing for a fact that Jimin was still not here, if he was then they would have informed you so.

What about the... Promise?

A thought crawled through the back of your mind and your head went blank after. Since when did you holded onto promises? A promise from someone like Jimin? Who even was he to you anymore? Just a Star Prince who was linked to you, million years ago. Someone you never asked for, did you?

However you can't stop the fate which was already written.

Your thoughts were interrupted when the door slammed opened and there rushed in Namjoon, breathless.

"Y/N! Jimin is back!" You never expected that you can sit up straight so fast hearing that, climbing off the bed.

"He's in pain, he's calling for you!" Namjoon informed you further, worried himself as after Jimin was back from the same path of the closet, he had been in pain ever since, calling out for you desperately, refusing his and Jin's touch, pushing them away and only ranting your name.

You both rushed out of the room and into Jimin's which was just at a distance. Entering in the still messed up room you saw Jin trying to console and talk to Jimin whom when you averted your eyes on him it felt like the surrounding around you had came to a halt.

His face was filled with tears and sweat, having a troubled expression, gasping for air and clutching on his chest desperately, body totally pressed against the closet door, low groans and whispers of your name was heard from him as the other older man was scared to touch the boy.

"We don't even know what's happening to him, he's calling for you the minute he was in pain when coming back" Namjoon was clearly worried for his brother, not too appealed seeing the poor boy in such a state where one can clearly tell that he's going through a torture within, as if he will die if someone isn't in his aid.