Reasons I'm depressed even though nobody asked :)

Reason #2

Keegan (my bf now) treats me like shit. He never talks to me, never asks how I am/how I'm feeling/whatever, talks shit about me behind my back, and lies to me all the time. He also yells at me basically any time he talks to me. I ask him if he's okay from time to time and he's like "yes goddamn" and I'm like "okay sorry" and then he's like "stop being fuckung sorry". I kinda can't because of shit that's been happening. Like I was raised to basically be a people pleaser and always apologize for ANYTHING you did wrong. So I basically apologize for everything. I can't explain it to Keegan because I'm scared he'll get mad at me, so I talk to his cousin who is very understanding of me and stuff. I should technically be taking a break from dating but I don't listen to people much. I really love Keegan. I have a bad habit of not leaving people because I care about their feelings too much. So no matter how horribly he treats me I won't leave him. A lot of people take advantage of me for that, especially because I'm so fucking clueless all the time.