Kpop Sickfics/Hurtfics

Abusive past - Seungkwan Seventeen

Requested by Cloudy787

I am really sorry that i took so long for my first chapter, but i was sick and i had really much stress in school, because i have to get transferred, bcs of these damn bullies and the teachers (btw they did also bully me, bcs i am not that good in school as the others, but i can't do anything against it, bcs i have exam anxiety.)

Also, i got reminded of my bestfriend, who passed away a few month ago. I had to fight with my mental health, and my depressions. But now, i am 'okay', bcs we have holidays soon in Bavaria🥳🥳🥳

Okay enough.

TW: Suicide attempt, near death experience, physical abuse

Have fun!!!

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Flashback------

Seungkwan POV

I had to go to my homeroom teacher again, because i have afterclass. I am not so good in school, and i want to do everything, to make my parents proud. I hate afterclass, not because i hate learning, it's because of my homeroom teacher.

In my first lesson, he shouted at me. I was the only one, who had afterclass with him. Shouting wasn't nice at all, but it wouldn't stay on shouting. In my third lesson, he slapped me in my face. So he did in the next couple of lessons, when i didn't get the right answer.

After two weeks, he started to seriously beating me up. He kicked me in my stomach, because my parents wouldn't check it.

I didn't want to bother my parents with my problems, so kept silent. At one day, bruises covered my whole stomach, and it hurt as hell. He kept kicking and punching my stomach, to the point i nearly fell unconsious.

I nearly didn't reach my home, and when i arrived, i rang, because i hadn't the strength to unlock the door. When my mother opened the door, everything went black.

A few days later, i woke up in the hospital. I had a ruptured spleen, and one of my kidneys were bad damaged. I had a very strong bleeding inside of my stomach and nearly died.

The doctor figured out, that i was beaten up. I told my mother and the doctor, that my homeroom teacher did this. Now he is luckily in prison for physically abuse.

Present--------

Seungkwan POV

"Hello, i am your new manager", a frienly looking guy said. "I am looking forward, to have a good work together with you guys."( idk if it's right, bcs in german it is "Zusammenarbeit")

"We'll be nice to you", Seungcheol answered.

We started our dance practice and did our rest of schedule. After our tasks, we wanted to head home. I am really looking forward to go to sleep.

"Seungkwan, can i have a talk with you?", the manager asked.

I nodded and followed him outside the room.

"Actually, i am not really satisfied with your dancing now, so i want you to make some extra practice. I will help you okay?", he asked with a friendly smile.

"Okay", i replied, also if i would like to go to bed.

After the members left, i was alone with our new manager. His mood changed a bit, but i didn't notice first. What a big mistake.

I started dancing to our new song, when the music suddenly stopped.

The manager told me to start again. This continued for the next 30 minutes.

"WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT RIGHT?! YOU DID THIS SONG FOR THE WHOLE LAST WEEK!", he yelled. I apologized and tried again.

These time when the music stopped, the manager came straight to me. He stood infront of me and slapped me directly in my face. I was shocked. All my memories of my childhood popped up into my mind. He made me to go on with practise.

Two hours later i finally went back to the dorms. My cheek still hurt and my muscles are all soure. At the dorms i didn't say anything to my members, and collapsed into my bed.

The next days were not different. The manager wanted me to stay, shouted at me and slapped and punched me. My mental health went worse. I was in a bad mood, and my body was covered with bruises. Luckily it is winter and really cold, so it wasn't suspicious to wear long clothes.

Timeskip, two weeks later---------

I couldn't do it anymore. I felt like crap. I didn't want to get beaten up anymore. I felt depressed, and didn't want to live. I started to look for the most painless way to commit suicide. I found a way, which doesn't seem that painless. Overdose.

I headed over to the kitchen, where Seungcheol cooked. I opened the medicine case and looked for sleeping pills.

"You okay?", the leader asked with a concerned look. It broke my heart to lie to him. It would be the last time to see him. I know, i will hurt my members pretty bad, and i think also CARAT will be very down, but i can't live like this anymore.

"Yes, i only can't sleep, also if i am really tired. So i am looking for sleeping pills", i answered. S.Coups came to me and took a bottle and gave it to me.

"Only take one, or maximum two", he said.

"Got it", i replied. He nodded his head.

"Rest well", my leader said with a warm smile.

I went back to my room. There was a bottle of water. I sat on my bed and put ten pills in my hand. I took them and drank water afterwards.first i didn't feel anything and took the bottle in my hand, when the dizziness kicked in and i felt drowsy. Then my vision started to get blurry and everything went black.

Seungcheol POV

I decided to look for Seungkwan, because he looked a bit down earlier. I hope, he can catch some sleep now. I headed over to his room and knocked at his door. No response.

I slowly opened the door and looked inside the room. Seungkwan laid motionless on his bed. He finally can catch some sleep i thought, and went over to cover him with a blanket. When i came nearer, i noticed his pale and sweaty skin. In the next moment, my eyes landed on the bottle of sleeping pills next to him. It was open, and a few of them are spilled over his bed. In the bottle weren't that much either, and in was completely untouched before. I also noticed the opened waterbottle on the table next to his bed.

"No no no, that can't be", i mumbled in a shock. I checked his pulse  and his breathing. Both were pretty weak. I started to panick and called the name of my friend.

"Help, HELP, HELP!", i screamed in panick. My breathing became faster, while i shook Seungkwan. All the other eleven members stormed in. When they realised, what happened, They started to talk in a mess, started to cry, or to comfort me. Vernon called 911. Jeonghan pushed some of the members out of the room, including me. Only him, Vernon and Seungkwan were left in the room.

I sat on the floor, crying and sobbing. I experienced a breakdown, i've never had before. I was shaking, and couldn't see anything through my swollen eyes.

"HE ISN'T BREATHING ANYMORE!"

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I hope you enjoyed the first chapter of this book. Also i have very many requests for Seungkwan, so i will close them for a while, because, i don't want to only write about one person🙃.

Also i know Seventeen, but not really close. I just listen to their songs, bcs they are pretty good.

If i make mistakes, then feel free to tell me, and also feel free to make requests of male kpop groups.

See ya in the next chapter😘