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I'm tired..

I'm tired as fuck.. But atleast a published book makes a little smile on my face :)

My name is Maria.. I live in the Philippines.. And my whole life.. Has been a huge bullshit.. Many people think I'm a happy kid but behind closed doors I'm already filled with emptiness.. We aren't that rich.. And right now, my parents are struggling with money.. They still have to pay me and my sister's tuition for school..

My nephew lives with us while his parents are working far.. (Not abroad) Everytime I lay on my bed at night, I just get the feeling that my body is sinking in darkness.. My eyes would always get puffy and red from tears..

Before I was so into Sports and active things.. Now, I got fat and lost interest in the things I like.. Everytime I see a sharp object, or a bottle of pills, or a rope, I always get the temptation of self-harm.. I almost died from dosing..

Please, if ever you're depressed or feeling down.. Don't be like me.. If you need a helping hand, I'm always open.. I just want everyone to be happy..