Flowers in the Lung | Lee Juyeon

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FLASHBACK!

I'm going to get the surgery. Rejection would result in my death. It's best to have all feelings removed then dying. Knowing my luck with the past guys I have loved, rejection hurts. Dying will hurt more. 

"Chailai, your condition is getting worse. It's last year of high school. Wouldn't the disease just go away?" Kevin mentioned. Hoping to prompt me not to get the surgery. There is a 5% chance of the disease not going away but that is a low chance.

"Kevin, it hurts. It hurts. I don't know what part. But it all hurts" I try and mutter out but I'm sobering to hard for anyone to understand me right now. "Flowers, FULL FLOWERS are coming out of me. I just want it to stop" I scream.

Kevin just looks at me in guilt. Him knowing my odds as well. "What if you confessed and he didn't reject?" Kevin questioned.

"What if. That is just a what if Kevin" I replied, "this is my only choice, my last resort. I will be doing the surgery" I add. My tears won't stop forming and I'm getting headaches now. It all started with a few petals, then blood with petals, my heart hurting, chest pains, some days it's hard to breath, then full flowers coming out. I have had enough. I want it all to stop.

"Ms. Chailai? We are going to prep you now for the surgery. You have not ate anything yet have you?" The nurse questioned as soon as she walked through the doorway. I nod my head then looked at Kevin.

"Be here when I get back" I requested. He nodded his head then they rolled me to the OR. 

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I woke up in a hospital room. Not knowing how I got there but a doctor is describing my condition to my friends in the room. "Uhm, hello?" I question looking at the doctor.

"She may not remember the surgery. Or anything about it. Definitely won't remember any memories with the guy" the doctor continued not hearing me.

"Hello? What am I doing here? What surgery?" I say a little bit louder, getting my voice across.

"Internal bleeding. Your lungs had a lot of damage from it. We patched you up and you will be good to go in about a week" the doctor answered. He just left the room leaving me to my friends care.

"You will be alright Chailai" my friend, Chanhee, said. I just smiled at him.

"See you'll be good in about a week" my other friend, Changmin, added. I nod.

"WHERE IS SHE" a guy yelled from outside the hall. Kevin, Chanhee, and Changmin all look at each other worried.

"I'm going to check out that commotion. Stay here and rest up with the others. I'll let you know what happened" Kevin said as he walked out closing the door just before he closed the blinds. Before he did I saw a guy with brown hair and he was tall, looking in my direction.

"Do I know that guy" I mentioned pointing out towards the now closed window "He looked a little familiar" I point out.

Chanhee and Changmin looked at each other worried. "No you don't. Probably a worried husband looking for his wife" Chanhee replied. I just look at them both with a confused look on my face.

"She got the surgery?" the males voice said out loud. Then all of a sudden Changmin turned on the tv, really loud too.

"Oh, I love this channel. Don't you Chailai?" Changmin questioned me. I just nod my head and watch the show. 

All of a sudden a guy busted into my hospital room. "Chailai" the guy said with a relieved expression. I just look at him confused.

"Who are you?" I ask politely. His expression changed. The nurses rush to get him out of the room. I just look at my friends. "Who was that. How does he know my name?" I ask.

"just get some rest. We will be here when you wake up tomorrow" Kevin requested. I just nodded my head and went to sleep.

END FLASHBACK!

I got the surgery. But where is my scar. I gave up my love for him. I started coughing profusely again. Getting lightheaded overtime while coughing more and more. 

"Chailai?" someone said walking into my bathroom. I think they saw the flower petals because they said something but it was a bit hazy. I just remembering blacking out after that.

I wake up in my own bed this time and I look around and notice my mom and my friends. 

"Where's dad" I ask my mom. She looks at me relieved. It is written all over her face. 

"He is on the phone with the doctors" She replied. I just look at her confused then remember. I remember everything. Juyeon, the disease. Is that why I was so attracted to it reading it in the book.

"Why'd he pretend not to know who the guy was in the library" I muttered under my breath not realizing I had said it out loud. 

"For your safety. I hoped you wouldn't remember it all" Kevin replied. His reply startled me a bit as I had not realized I said my question out loud.

"So the guy at the hospital that day was Juyeon? Why was he looking for me? I have so many questions to ask him" I expressed loudly. I tried getting up but I was hit with a wave of coughing. Flower petals started coming out of my mouth. Everyone looked at me worried. 

My phone dinged. I picked it up and saw a text from an unknown number saying 'Hey, this is Juyeon. The one from the library. I got your number from a friend. I was wondering if you wanted coffee? I know a great shop.' 

"It's Juyeon. He wants coffee" I said to everyone. They all looked at each other. "Before anyone of you says it is  bad idea. He doesn't know I remember. I would like to keep it that way. I want to give it a second chance. I will set a deadline. By that deadline I will confess to him. I don't want any of you to stop me. If I have this disease again, it's better to be rejected then that 5% chance coming back" I requested, more like demanding my place in this whole situation.

I honestly hope I wont get rejected. The deadline will be XXX 27th. Todays date is XX 23rd. I have a month and two weeks to make Lee Juyeon fall in love with me.